Mind your own Business

As i looked out the window, the bustling of people to and fro. I felt a click of the slow-mo button. I see everything else moving around me so fast but yet ive only managed a blink. Then the wind howls madly and the rain starts to pour. With a snap of a finger, everything was in play again.
Its hard to swim in the open waters on your own. You have a destination but no clue where the path is because there isnt any path in the open waters. You only have one direction; forward. And like you see in the attempt of doing so there will be a boat floating just by the swimmer with what seem like never-ending words of encouragement. Hats off to the people on the boat; if it werent for them, the swimmer would not have made it on the far side. They do have a part to play for that achievement.
Nevertheless, like the term applies "mind over matter".
The mind is indeed a powerful tool. If you think you're good, then you will be. And vice versa. Thats how anything happen. Love, hate, jealousy, depression, etc. First you feel, then you think. Feelings are temporary. How the feelings stay is entire up to your mind to think it so. Only then it will.

Silence

And she found herself staring in the mirror, but only to find emptiness staring back at her even with makeup on her face. So she wiped off the black eyeliner from those tired eyes which always managed to make them appear big and alive. Those red lips too. Funny how colors add life to an empty plain canvas. Like a rainbow in an empty sky. Had people awed in a specific vast moment of beauty.
And then with a blink of an eye, gone.
While her body cleanses away the dirt and ashes from the long day, her mind wonders about the possible reasons for the emptiness. Blaming others and herself. Mostly herself.
"You are better than this. How could you let it go this far? What were you thinking?"
Questions linger without answers. Silence overcame the void along with the sounds of the rushing waters from the showerhead.
Then so very quickly her mind shifted. To the moments of happiness and laughter with she shared. And for that moment, she felt it. And thats it.
Silence.

Sept-Oct Photo Diary

These 2 months has been quite smooth-sailing despite the recent events that occurred. But not letting it bring me down, we can only move along and hope things gets better. As you can see 2 months worth of pictures are much lesser than the previous photo diary. Well what i can i say, the good things are better left unsaid. Let's not jinx it shall we?

Well, happy 4th.
I never forget; although i always say i dont remember incidents of us. This is only because its my only way to get rid of you in my life. The only pictures i have of us are sealed in a photo album which has been collecting dust of all these years.
I must say i made it through without you and i couldnt have done it without you.
Yes, you.
Im sure you are all confused right now; you dont have to understand.
You are still there when i need a familiar and trusting shoulder to lean on and im truly grateful because you are still here despite all.
Like i said before, i do want things to work out for you this time. I really dont think this one is going to work out. I know my opinion is nothing to you, this is just coming from a friend who cares.
There are many who dont believe that exes cant be friends, but hey its all in your hands.
Happy 4th.

June photo diary

I love June. Not only because my birthday falls in that month, it also marks that we halfway through the year. Like i cant wait for the year to be over. Im looking forward to December already. Let this year end off well than i expected it to be. Lets go!

Random things

I am definitely a fan of unplanned and random things. Like this for instance. Its a gift from him and he totally did not plan it. But the fact that he thought of giving it to me instead of keeping it for himself, thats what counts. Its a funny tingling feeling you get at the bottom of your stomach that wouldnt erase that cheeky smile off your face. Like the saying, "like a kid getting candy."
Yes, definitely a love.

Its okay not to be okay

Geared with a caffeine drink, a book and a 4 hour-powered netbook with a supply of internet service from an iPhone; and i sit here reflecting on the events that had happened in the past what... month?

Ive been blessed to have beautiful friends who are amazingly understanding with our every crap and nonsense, crankiness and bitchiness. But yet, i can never fight off this feeling that we havent seen each other at our very worst; for me at least. This is to my girls, you all are missed. I mean all.

And i have another set of friends who are filled with life and passion, always on the go; as if nothing can ever bring them down. But in fact, they are the very people who have walked or is walking the different paths of life, and they are never selfish in sharing and supporting each other. They bring me life, laughter and i envy their achievements; only making me to work even harder to accomplish my goals. This is to my 'okay-go' gang, you are the best.

And there's this one person, who have recently came in my life; who has never fail to put a smile(more like a grin)on my face whenever his name comes up on my ID caller. And like any other day, this wouldnt be anything i would write about, but this one's special. I never thought he would be the one that can light up my eyes ever so brightly just as my heart does premature ventricular contractions. It never cross my mind that he would bring back the joy of just having a company for a meal or the one that calls to kiss me goodnight over the phone and make sure i prostate to the one and only. And he has the most amazing eyes that i drown just by looking at them. But like all fairytales, there is the evil stepmother and a villain. Mine's no different. But i am blessed to have the chance to know this man; all thanks to my 'okay-go' gang. Sometimes, good things happen when you least expected it. This feeling is a long time coming and im loving every ounce of it.

I cant help sounding as if this is the last blog entry i am going to publish. I have no idea why im penning this down. I guess i havent really write down my thoughts clearly without having one to read between the lines of my post. Well, i guess just this once :)