OMG this is so long ago.

I'm here. I love you. I don't care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. If you need the medication again, go ahead and take it -- I will love you through that, as well. If you don't need the medication, I will love you, too.

There's nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver then Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.

Ahli Fikir
2x5

Kali Bagi Tolak Campur
Habislah geli kerana geletek
Hilanglah resah kerana biasa
Kerana telah terbiasa
Geli dan resah tidak lagi terasa

Semut di seberang lautan
Kau nampak
Bila gajah di depan mata
Kau buta

Lebih sudu dari lauk
Lebih tunjuk dari tengok
Lebih diri dari duduk
Lebih cawan dari mangkuk

Berkata-kata jangan lupa
Banyak yang bertukang di mata dan Mulut
Sedikit sahaja yang
Menukang di tangan
Bangkai gajah busuk di hutan
Hendak di tanam
Pekong di kaki sendiri dibiaskan
Busuk oh.. Kurap, kudis, nanah, kayap.. ii..

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh

Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

Duduk diam tunggu dulu
Kunci mulut nanti dulu
Sebelum kau berbicara
Sebelum kau nak berkata
Cermin dulu hujung rambut
Hingga ke hujung hujung kuku kakimu

Kurangkan lada kurang pedasnya
Kurangkan rempah kurang panasnya
Kurangkan lebah kurang sengatnya
Kurangkan cakap kurang silapnya

Dan membisu takut takut
Nana tahu silap hari
Silap bulan lambat laun
Silap tahun kau menjadi

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh

Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

Jangan cakap lepas
Biar pandai beralas
Ada ubi ada batas
Ada hari kami balas

Kiramu hanya bias
Cecamu cuma tempias
Hari ini kami berkias
Esok lusa kami mengganas

Jangan suka jaga tepi kain orang lain
Kain sendiri yang terlondeh
Kata dulang paku serpih
Kata orang dia yang lebih

Ada orang suka menerima
Tapi tidak suka menderma
Ada orang suka menderma
Tapi diharap dibalikkan semula

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh

Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh

Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

Colbie Caillat
I Never Told You

I miss those blue eyes
How you kissed me at night
I miss the way we see
Like there's no sunrise
The taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But i never told you
What i should have said
No i never told you
I just held it in
And now i miss everything
About you
I cant believe i still want you
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Every time i close mine
You make it hard to see
Where i belong to when im not
Around you
Its like im gone with me

But i never told you
What i should have said
No i never told you
I just held it in
And now i miss everything
About you
I cant believe i still want
You
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But i never told you
What i should have said
No i never told you
I just held it in
And now i miss everything
About you
(still you're gone)
Cant believe that i still want
You
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

hmm.. im trying my best not to stoop to your level of literacy which you successfully managed to show the cyber world that you are not what you are as a person.
congratulations on that.
but my dear bitch, feelings dont lie.
i want you to know that i know.
im sure you know what i mean.

well, with that aside.
my blog seemed dead, havent it?

well, tons have been going on and i just dont have the energy nor time to write it all down.
i have a monthly update schedule which by the way is due this friday, and i have yet to touch it.
not to mention with tons of pending jobs on my table.
im killing myself.

outside work context, it has been quite stagnant with few perks along the way.
cant complain.
life's a bitch.
im still young.

to you,
i am pissed. i will hunt you down if you ever hurt him again.

to you,
i will never see you again if you let her hurt you and you let her off so easily.
you didnt give me a chance.

to you,
i dont know you anymore. yet i still do.
i dont know.

to you,
i dont want to be the guy in the relationship.
start acting like one or i'll walk away.
which i starting to.

to you,
im trying to not like you so much.

to you,
stop talking about others and make it seem as if they are the one finding fault with you.
get a life bitch.

i need a weekend getaway.
adious bitches.

its amazing how rumours starts.
like a burning fire, it started from a spark.

some people should really get a life of their own,
and the people they are bitching/kepo-ing about... didnt even feel the burn.

come on, be an adult and man up for your doings..
for once be responsible and write your bloody name on the paper and not leave it as anonymous.
think what, you writing a survey is it?
worse still, you linked the coloumn which is suppose to be your name to another blog.
mintak kene tendang?
dont know how to read is it?
NAME! not INSERT-LINK-OF-OTHER-PEOPLE'S-TUMBLR.
whoever you are, i hope fate bites you in the back when you least expected it.

why are you so bothered about whats going on in other peopele's life?
dont you have a life of your own?
dont tell me its perfect, shit happens once in a while.
so clean up your own shit and leave other's shit as it is and not dump your shit with theirs!
thats just insanely childish of you.

man enough? i want to see your face.
come on. its a challenge.

im sure you're reading this since you got my tumblr.
seriously takde keje?
other people have a hard time finding my tumblr and you have it.
bravo to you.

show your damn face.
OKAY LAH.. give you chance.
just write your name.
NAME.
not difficult right?
since you are clever enough to link people's blog im sure you can type out your name.

shingz.

and by the way, its a song from The Script; Before The Worse.
go look up for the lyrics.

double shingz.

when good turns bad,
when right turns wrong,
when everything you believed in bites you from the back,
when the world starts to turn against you,
who do you stop to blame?
who is to blame?
the world?
or yourself?

when do you stop and accept the fact you are at fault, now?
when will you realize it if your head is up in cloud nine, thinking it will all stay for a while?
how would you know it will last for a while?
can you gurantee that?
will you put your life on the line?

put your ego aside and step into the light.
the life.
its bright, too bright to see through the naked.
we have to find shade to block the sun.
sometimes we find it, most times we dont.
and thats life.
you just got to swallow it.

do the crime, pay the time.