Qabil Khushry Qabil Igam

im such a sinis.. me and my mum were watching a malay movie 'Qabil Khushry Qabil Igam'.. a fairytale Malaywood cum sober ending..
my mum was crying like a baby and me.. laughing at her.. lols..
the story is touching really.. i just dont know why i didnt cry..
i mean i did cry when i was watching 'Kal Ho Na Ho' even after countless times i watched the movie.
lols..
makes me wonder where's my 'sad' feelings gone to.. you know...
i hadnt cry in months.. i dont know if its a good thing or bad.. maybe both *shrugss*

well its the first day of school.. for me.. haha..
i met Nana at YioChuKang mrt cause she missed the train at Khatib to meet me.. lols..
first period was sucky.. only 10mins of briefing out of the 2hours!! end up we had a longg break.. i forgot how longg.. haha
Rachel, Tang En, Shaf and me went to the library cafae to watch 'Garfield the Movie' to kill time after having soem light lunch so to say...

almost everyone asked me about him..
i dont know guys.. yes, he's still schooling.. thats what Huai Xin told me.. so ask her people okay?? she's in the same class as him.. i swear i dont know.. i only talked to him once after monkey months...

pervert people are everywhere.. even among the people you know close.

catch my uncle Roslan on Anugerah this Tuesday!!

whats happening world???

i didnt close my eyes till 6am just now.. and i got up only 1030am. hee.

Nana smiling.. i can see from here. haha.

yeay!! tomorrow im schooling!! haha.. usually other people would be dreading to start school but not me!! lols.. I MISS STUDYING!! hell yeah.

reason why i didnt get to sleep is becaue i was up sms-ing.. lol. i wish i could use the house phone in the middle of the night but i just thought it would be rude cause they rest of the family i sleeping... takut kacau diorg tido..

dunie nie dah tunggang langgang... people having sex everywhere.. no matter what age, race, religion.. everyone's doing it. it became a common thing now even among Malays. its all over the news people..

Whats up with that??

where's your dignity and pride girls?? im not saying im the most goodest person in the world but sex... nahh.. count me out.

orang yang mengadakan hubungan sex dengan orang yang bukan mahram.. dia bukan tidak berfikiran waras.. dia cuma tidak cukup agama, tidak berfikiran matang.. tidak fikir apa yang akan terjadi padanya di hari pengadilan... tidak fikir dosa dan pahala..

hanya memikirkan tentang kepuasan nafsunya.

apa nak jadi dengan Melayu??

i hate black nigross

hey!!
how many days i didnt blogg?? lols.

ermm lets see...
i went out on wednesday...visited Lia at GAP.
she got angry with her colleague.. lols.
i met my new friend after that..

yesterday i went to Bugis with Lia.
initially we planned for Siraj's birthday celebration at night but it got cancelled, so it was just Lia and me looking for presents..
i got Haiqi's present!! lols.
after all that, me and Lia decided to buy something for OURselves...
haha.. it was just something small la but it was worth it kan Lia sayang?? =P

ohoh i just have to say this mann..
while we were at Bugis rightt, there's this black fucker nigro came up to me and started talking to me!!
waddafark la! dont laugh la..i was freaking pissed..and scared at the same time..
takut nak mampos..
i didnt know he followed us inside Bugis Village where i was looking for Haiqi's present la..
Lia was like
"auntie, he keep following us!"
she was getting pissed too.. i mean of cos la fcuker!
org tak nak layan maseh kepo-kepo!
fuck!
damn scared la... nasib banyak org.. chibaii..

"go date la azi.."
fuck la.. you think its that easy ar to go out with someone you dont know... kan Nana kan.. haha..yeay!! im going to school with Nana next week..woohoo!! lols.
okok back to topic...
hmm..okay i forgot what i wanna say... lols.
i havent been going out with other people except my friends for a long long long long long long long time and its sucky la i admit it.. but i have a fucking reason why so.. i dont hafta tell you the reason..
but it would be nice to just meet new people... no harm done.
yes, i know myself and im not ready to do so..
i know myself.

Kaer's "Izinku Pergi" is singing in my mind...

"Speech was only a bag of tricks that fooled you into believing that you can see through the eyes of another being"

he's my brother

introducing Joss Stone

currently watching PopInc while on the comp..waiting for the Beyonce video.
but hey, 'TellMeAboutIt' video by JossStone is cool too. i love her new hairdo.

its like everyday i have to raise my voice because this 'cute' brother of mine that everyone says he is (NOTT!) wants to play his video game once he step into the house.

i will go,

"BARU BALEK KAN??!! TAK TAU NAK MAKAN DULU!!"

(mak nenek alert..haha..)

im tired la.. everyday have to gadoh with him and its over a stupid thing..

i mean his exams are coming la and he dont get it that he have to study because he's that weak in his studies...

so any potential teachers out there... how to motivate this stubborn brother of mine that thinks video games are everything.. lol.. im serious mann..

he's playing 'em now.. *roll eyes*

finally a matured conversation.

like i said before, its hard being good.

trying to satisfy both sides is hard. loyalty are being questioned. which side do you choose when you have to choose. and when things doesnt go well, you're caught in the middle trying to please each sides.

sometimes you just wanna go away and hide..

'i dont wana be apart of it..'

'i didnt ask for this to happen..'

'why me?'

'im trying..'

all this came into question... but you know deep down you just cant walk away from them...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!

no matter what he's done i'll always love you...

& Denise too! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!

"sometimes its not about being number one..."

slimming session

this is way cool.
i just got back from CausewayPoint and boy am i lucky, as soon as i stepped in the house it started to rain.

its so hard to be good.
i mean everyone wants to be good, rightt??
they just have their own ways...ways that it could hurt others without them knowing and that sucks.
but isnt that bad??
*shruggs

Beyonce's 'UpgradeYou' have been playing on and on in my head.
the video's great especially when she mimic JayZ. like so damn cool la.
ans the dancing awesome. my mum tried to dance like her. lol.
another song is 'FreakumDress' is perfect for us ladies. i like the runway part.

i just got a chance to hear RichardJ's 'ImLikeThat' on Perfect10. it good la. i mean i only heard the ending :) and he sounded like a eurasian...well he is mixed. haha.

i have a lot of things to do, lotsa people to meet in so little time.
tomorrow's my mum's birthday and she's working. lol.
wednesday is haiqi's and i have yet to receive my 50 bucks from my previous job. hey, its still money okay.
nak beli ape siak??

funny sia you people...i just put my personal nick as
'damn i miss you'
and there's already two people clicked me and say
'i miss you too'
lol.

enjoy the video aite.

cramps

a few hours ago i just got back home. family decided to go out the very last minute.
i had cramps and was thinking of staying at home jek. i can barely walk, let alone stand up. thats how bad my cramps were.
but i just followed cause i didnt want the family to feel bad cause they left me alone at home while they go and have fun.

we went to MountFaber..walk walk..took some photos..blabla..
then dad drove us to see the wheel thingy at marina..oh, i forgot the name damnit.
then we went to eat at amk hub&visited my grandma since we were in the area.

its funny how suddenly your ex-bfren can talk to you.
like..."wait!are you seriously talking to me???"
and yeah, that was the exact words i said to him.
i mean i was just talking about him with my younger sister and mum and after monkey months he's talking to me. well, not exactly talking talk..msn is still considered talking rightt?? dont answer that.
and now im talking to siraj about lia's MIA since yesterday and suddenly POOF! she sms-ed me!
coincidence??
i hate coincidence.

i didnt move on damnit.
where you get that idea from huh?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZUL!

random

"Cermin" is not that of a scary movie.
its okay. i didnt watch the ending cause its so predictable.
lol.

i have flabby arms and watching Shakira winning the title of 'MostWantedAbs' on MTV doesnt help okay.
like damn that girl have sexy abs that look feminine.
i mean i am happy with my body im not happy with what im doing to it like stuffing myself with food,sweets,chocolates and coffee.
& i should be the healthy one.
pfffftt.
MaryJBlige with her 'MostWantedArms', Beyonce with her 'MostWantedCurves' and GwenStefani with 'MostWantedLegs'. damn i hate my legs.
kay, my gurls will go nuts if i continue =P

like everyday, i wake up at 12pm but today i woke up at 5am,8am and the final draw at 945am.
its a good thing 'SuriaSegar' is back on so i have something to watch just now. and its a treat cause SyedAzmir was on.
i miss that cutie on air.

then i did some housework like everyday. same old routine.
today my first day and im trying so bloody hard to content the pain.
urgh.

life has brought me to a stage where i can sing my heart out after successfully filling in the right informations on the contract which both my parents agreed to.
and im glad they are apart of it.

im trying to write as 'direct' as i can but whenever i click 'new post' and the page comes on, i go blank.
like how denise do it? and to write more than three entries a day is like whack!
nevertheless, i'll try.
i have a lot of time on my hands and i'll try to make full good use of it kay.

okay, 'TemanAnugerahku' is on and my dad will go berserk in a second.
cute brothers arent that cute you know.

my first

hey world.im at it again.haha.
how long was i gone??well,long enough.
i miss blogging.
how you like my skin?i know its simple and copyrighted but hey,its damn hard la to make your own skin.
salutes to those who can.i know one. =)

i'll start with...I MISS ELLA KU SAYANG!!
argh man.september is sucha long way to go.
its only april damnit.

okay i just hafta say this.
Arts Panache 2 was superb though, like cikgu cheah said it would be better if the storyline is a bit longer.
but nevertheless, farida's GREAT!!
i mean have you ever see a plump girl dancing her heart out and she can keep up with the rest of the crew??HELL NO!

school's starting on the 30th april.
i wish it'll start sooner.im bored!
im so happy for nana.
a new life ina new school huh babe??haha.
you'll be fine..im sure.

i earned a total of 145 bucks during the holidays.
and its different jobs mind you. there's from my tuition lesson, this 1-day job and the recent one that i just been to. i still havent got my 5o bucks yet.

family's been great.
friends couldnt get any better.
my social life sucks.
and yeah,i still havent settle this feud with my ex-boyfriend.
damn it.

"it wont be soon before long..."