Taylor Swift
Ours

Elevator buttons and morning air
Strangers' silence makes me wanna take the stairs
If you were here we'd laugh at their vacant stares
But right now my time is theirs

Seems like theres always someone who disapproves
They'll judge it like they know me and you
And the verdict comes from those who has nothing else to do
The jurys' out but my choice is you

So don't worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high
The waters rough
But this love ours

You never know what people have up their sleeves
Ghosts from your past gonna jump out at me
Lurking in the shadows with their lip gloss smiles
But i dont care cause right now you're mine

And you'll say don't worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high
The waters rough
But this love ours

But its not theirs to speculate
If its wrong and your hands are tough but they are where mine belong and
I'll fight their doubts and give you faith with this song

Cause i love the gap between your teeth
And i love the riddles that you speak
And any snide remarks from my father about your tattoos will be ignored
Cause my heart is yours

So don't worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard

So don't worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
But they cant take away whats ours
They cant take away whats ours
The stakes are high
The waters rough
But this love ours

The Void

Never thought i'd go down like this. Never thought it'd be this hard.

Maybe this is karma in the making. For the things ive done in the past.

I turned to Him for help. He gave me signs and guide me through.

I need a hand to hold, God i cant find you.

The scariest place to be. In the dark without light.

Sometimes you stop in loss, but you feel the light's not far ahead.

So you force these legs to walk on further. Deeper into the void of the darkness.

Without knowing if its the right way you're heading.

At times you run fast, cause you thought u saw the light.

At times you crumbled and cry in deperation for help.

And all you have is the echo of your own voice.

And the darkness is your only friend once more.

Diversed thoughts

Lowered gaze and careful thoughts. Softer and looser approach. In constant watch of wondering eyes. Any essence of evil spotted and strikes of red marks get jotted down. A calling you will never hear but the presence so strong you cant deny its existence. But we wonder around aimlessly; oblivios, ignorance, arrogance. Masyallah.

A piece of cloth. A simple piece of cloth. Lies a tale more than the naked eye can see. A protection, under watchful evil eyes. A definition, differentiating a woman from a man. A cover, to safe keep God's most beautiful treasure. A prevention, from things God hates. And the will, in all individual's heart a secret conversation with him and God.

Those days where....

I miss you terribly. I miss your company, your laughter, your smiles. I miss waking up to your goodmorning texts and hearing your voice at the end of the line wishing me goodnight. I miss holding hands with you. I miss the times you would pat me on the head. I miss leaning on your shoulders. I miss putting and letting you put your arms around me. I miss the moments where i say i miss you. And i definitely miss you saying i love you too.

But this heart's still in stone. Frozen in time. Afraid of breaking into pieces. By the very person whom makes it leaps with joy. Just couldnt bear to be hurt the same way anymore.

And so i continue to miss you. Sometimes i fall in vain. Longing for your touch, care and love. But this mind is overbearing. Protecting the heart is its main priority. No one's ever breaking in, unless one earns it.

Bon Nuit

Was out again with Nikon D90. Din was kind enough to let me hold on to it til my photography phase is over or when he needs it. This time im accompanied by another newcomer in the photo-enthusiast. Took a couple of night shots (my first actually).

Totally love the shot of the ant. Its as if its screaming to me for taking a shot at it. Haha!

Best I Ever Had

Of all the tears i shed from my heartbreaking moments, my heart only literally ache whenever it sheds tears for you ang timothy mark.
You are the best i ever had and always will be. I never regret the day i turned my back on you because if it werent for you, we would never be where we are today.
You found a new love and i have a feeling it will work out fine. Maybe thats why im shedding tears because i feel that this time im losing you for real.
Still the only one that literally make my heart ache. But still the only one that i will choose if im ever given a choice. I definitely choose my bestfriend, ang timothy mark.

Botanics Photo Diary

As promised, shots from Din's Nikon D90.

Catch up

Like dominos falling in a perfect formation. That instant push which started the flow. The wind blows hard through her hair, as she walked down the street alone. The sounds of chaos from foreigners engrossed with the scenic beauty of the skyscrapers Singapore has offered; for some reason to her it felt like a cover up of the plunging recession she faced in her life. And from where she stood gazed above the waters, she saw herself floating in mid-air. A moment of peace she felt each time she bowed down on her prayer mat. Heading towards forward; where beauty shall unfold. Where anyone would longed to be.

Experimental Hobby

Did an experimental shoot today with a Nikon D90 thanks to Din. Was suppose to use a D5000 belonging to my sister but being my sister, she lent it to her boyfriend even though i asked for it 2 days before. Pfffttt

Anyways, i brought my Instax Mini 7S out to play too. Guess i have a lot more to learn about taking good shots and angles. Getting the hang of it, fyi. I wanted my readers (whoever they are) to see my shots with Instax Mini firsthand therefore the pictures are as original as it is. I just love old school cameras like polaroids, holga, lomo etc. They give their own unique effect and always draws in viewers with an orgasmic vibe that only they can express. Its a whole new level this photography.

Im also learning to take videos with DSLR cameras. Thats the first step. The hard part is the editting which ive yet to sit down and study about it.

Will post pictures with Nikon in my next post.

Mind your own Business

As i looked out the window, the bustling of people to and fro. I felt a click of the slow-mo button. I see everything else moving around me so fast but yet ive only managed a blink. Then the wind howls madly and the rain starts to pour. With a snap of a finger, everything was in play again.
Its hard to swim in the open waters on your own. You have a destination but no clue where the path is because there isnt any path in the open waters. You only have one direction; forward. And like you see in the attempt of doing so there will be a boat floating just by the swimmer with what seem like never-ending words of encouragement. Hats off to the people on the boat; if it werent for them, the swimmer would not have made it on the far side. They do have a part to play for that achievement.
Nevertheless, like the term applies "mind over matter".
The mind is indeed a powerful tool. If you think you're good, then you will be. And vice versa. Thats how anything happen. Love, hate, jealousy, depression, etc. First you feel, then you think. Feelings are temporary. How the feelings stay is entire up to your mind to think it so. Only then it will.

Silence

And she found herself staring in the mirror, but only to find emptiness staring back at her even with makeup on her face. So she wiped off the black eyeliner from those tired eyes which always managed to make them appear big and alive. Those red lips too. Funny how colors add life to an empty plain canvas. Like a rainbow in an empty sky. Had people awed in a specific vast moment of beauty.
And then with a blink of an eye, gone.
While her body cleanses away the dirt and ashes from the long day, her mind wonders about the possible reasons for the emptiness. Blaming others and herself. Mostly herself.
"You are better than this. How could you let it go this far? What were you thinking?"
Questions linger without answers. Silence overcame the void along with the sounds of the rushing waters from the showerhead.
Then so very quickly her mind shifted. To the moments of happiness and laughter with she shared. And for that moment, she felt it. And thats it.
Silence.

Sept-Oct Photo Diary

These 2 months has been quite smooth-sailing despite the recent events that occurred. But not letting it bring me down, we can only move along and hope things gets better. As you can see 2 months worth of pictures are much lesser than the previous photo diary. Well what i can i say, the good things are better left unsaid. Let's not jinx it shall we?