Smile. Life fucks us all.

So tell me,
what does someone do when he comes to the end of the road only to find a junction?
Which way should he go? Left or right?
Based on what decision? What rationale?
And when he made his move but only to find a dead end with a squad of gunmen aiming at his direction, what will be his next move? Or rather, should he had prepared himself for any circumstances that he could be faced with before making his move at the junction? What if he had, and that too failed on him.
So who's to blame?

I guess no one is perfect. No matter how careful you are, there will definitely be a time where you find yourself in your most darkest hour; where you find yourself feeling helpless and lost, unsatisfied and unfulfilled, neglected and unloved.
For all things i believe in, i strongly believe that you will never get everything in life. And when you think that you have, you will definitely lose something in your life; physically, mentally or emotionally.

So how shall we overcome this then?
Personally, i have yet to figure this one out. Life is such a mystery. Like investigating a crime. Long and complicated. Some mystery are solved. Then leads to uncover another mystery. And so on and so forth.
Then i guess we will never uncover the truth about life and how to live it right.

Do we want to live it right then?
They say live life to the fullest.
I will ask, 'what if that leads you to be the biggest dork in town? what if that leads you to be living on the streets? what if that leads you to be living alone in a big mansion house all alone?'
Do you still want to live life to the fullest?
Neglecting responsibilities, unfulfilling your duty as a child; living by your own rules.

And so i always counter these attacks with questions for my own self reflection.

Are you happy?
Honestly, no. But im on my way. Slowly.
I am happy with my friends.
Im not so sure i am happy for me, my achievements and my decisions.

What do you want?
I want to spread my wings for now.
Career wise, i have made a few discoveries in which i am disappointed and unexpected. It came all at once and decisions have to be made. I only wished life has not done this to me because it has affected me and others around me; being me affected quite harshly.

Is this right the right move?
Who still does what is right anymore. Nowadays people do something which they love and passionate about. People do things just because they want to do it; they dont look at the paycheck because they actually love doing what they do.
Feel. People do what feels good to them, even though they know it is the wrong thing to do.
Is it wrong? To do something that makes you feel good?

You are your own judge.
Words are like bullets set to slow you down to reach your enemy.
Once you get you belief straight, you will definitely be able to achieve the things you love to do with much confidence and rationalise decision making.

In all due respect and honor,i put my head down and in Your name i recite the prayers.
For you are loved and to be loved.

In due of secrecy and thrill, life takes us uphill and down. In time we learn that what we are now is from the influences rubbed against us by many people we come across; with different perceptions, beliefs, personalities and mindsets.
Many would describe it as lack of originality.
I call it, unique.

With passion comes hard work. With hard work comes discipline.
The fire does not burn all night long.
And the flame gets smaller in time.
Keeping the flame alive, comes responsibility.
And responsibility, we do have too many.