pictures of you, pictures of me

Dear Baby,

Im sorry i couldnt make you stop crying.
Im sorry you're hurt.
Im sorry if you think he doesnt care.
Im sorry i cant do anything about it.

Im sorry i choose to not do anything about it.
Cause you and i both know its not worth it.
Its not worth fighting for.

Now come on, crawl over here.
Let me take your pain away.
Let me wipe your tears.
Let me bare your pain.

He aint worth it my love.

With love,
Mum

i sit here like a little child.
lost in a crowded room, crying for her mum.
no one seem to care or hear the cries.
mummy where'd you go?
i miss you so.
then i go and think about the things you put me through.
mummy how could you?
how could you do this to me?
i love you so.
i love you so.

Before The Worst
The Script

It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain
So explain to me, how it came to this
Take it back to the night we kissed
It was Dublin city on a Friday night
You were vodkas and coke, I was Guinness all night

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

There was a time, that we'd stay up all night
Best friends talking till the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to loose, but so much to gain
Are hearing me? Cause I don't wanna miss,
Set you a drift on memory bliss
It was Grafton Street on a rainy night
I was down on one knee and you where mine for life

We we're thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

If the clouds don't clear
Then well rise above it, well rise above it
Heavens gate is so near
Come walk with me through
Just like we use to, just like we use to

Lets take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

look up and you'll see, be grateful for what you have.
smile, just smile a little, capture foolish hearts.
you are missed babyboy.

this is a rare state.

im emotional yet im taking it easy.
let the wind pass me by.
"interior wise = decent

exterior wise = HAVOC!" he said.

i wonder near and far.

it amazes me how much ive been through and looking back,

i must say i only have one regret.

no matter where i am and what im doing, i will always remember it.

Tonight, i bow down to You.

Amazed by Your power and creations.

How things are and how they are suppose to be.

Its because of You.

Sometimes we question why, we know damn well not to.

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i want to sleep peacefully tonight, just you in my thoughts.
as i wished for you in my dreams, the colours of the rainbow engulf me.
now hold me close.