you are soooooo wronggg!!

FAT ASS!

you're just a fat bastard who is sooooooooo insecure of youself.
not including that you're a minah!
ewww, fats dangling out of that short bottom you're wearing!
no wonder you're insecure.
nobody asked you you're opinion, PIG!

you're just jealous you dont have legs like mine

HOT!

i miss my soldier!!
arghh!!
miss him miss him miss him!!!
dang it!

the weather sucks man.
like seriously..
it was brigiht sunny sunday, and the next thing is dark gloomy rainy sunday..
like.. whats the matter??!!
urgh.

YEY! i dont have school!!
haha!!
they better take care of my spongebob pillow mann!!
one stain of semen and they gonna get it!
huh? haha!

tomoroow's dinner with the SPT team at Sakura.
hope all are going.
if not, boring shit.
what are we doing after that arrhh people??!!
hope i get my money soon,damnit.

the Christmas songs are getting on my nerves.

i want to spend my lazy sundays with you.
be in your arms is the best place in the world.
the warmth and comfort.
the serene thought of being with you.
faraway from everybody and anybody.
just the two of us.
i love you like no other.
and no other can replace this feeling.
deeply, madly.
i love you.

will you love me till the early morning?

morning..
updating from school..
not in the mood to do my report now..
i got untill monday..
hahaha..
procastinating huh azi..
boo.

i miss my soldier!
when he comes out from confinement, i'd be away for a holiday to dont know where and dont know when..
hah.
boo.

YEY!
MONDAY NO SCHOOL!!!
AHAHAH!!
not exactly, have to come back to school to hand in the report..
but its ok!
at least i can get away from school..
nyaha..

im so bored..
and hungry.

boo.
gotta work.
bye.

Seasick and what not.

Sailing was fun!!!
on the first day that is.
haha..
i got seasick on the second and fortunately the final day..
was vomitting from my nose all..
hahaa..
i know..
yuck..
smelled like puke all the way to shore..
lucky got boat come pick me up..
hee..
i never felt so useless in my life before..
haha..
i hate TanahMerah can??
so far just to go sailing..
sheeeshhhh..

i met diidi!!
my wondergirl!!
haha!
miss her lah can..
you funny lah..
call me say you saw me when in fact you can come over to where i was..
haha
cute.
oh, and you look so tall lah!!!
not fair..
i shrunk. lol.

Oh Sweet One.
my favourite song of all times!
hee.

YEAY!!!
last week of school!
lask week of school!
hahahahahahahah...
cant wait to get out from that stuffy room which Huai Xin had cleaned up.
haha!
next stop.... Classical..
BOO!

tengok ape?? Bacin!

10seconds before the vomitting begins. hah.

irresponsible fucktard

hah.
what a title..
as if you guys can see it..
lol..

all i want to say is..
I MISS MY SOLDIER!!!

and..

I LOVE SATURDAY CANN?!!hee..

Adidas sponsored 42km runner.

biatch alert

to you:
im sorry for all this crap. i just dont know why im feeling like this.
like crap.. more like shit..
i didnt mean to make this so hard on you till you're unable to sleep or eat.
apart from the incident that night.. this is not helping and i apologise.
im really sorry..
haiz..
i told you the reason already..
i just need you now to be there for me and confinement doesnt help.
urgh.
all these happening at the wrong time!!
im really sorry baby..

to you:
i know i hadnt been contacting you..
i try my best to see you..
we dont see each other much anymore babe..
im sorry for not telling you..
i thought of telling you when i meet you..
but that wasnt the case..
so now im mad that you're not replying my smses and returning my calls..
i guess you're busy..
plus im in a irritatable mood so maybe im just being crappy..
hit me up would you?
im sorry if i hurt you in any way..

to you:
whats wrong with you??
why arent you your old self??
what the fuck is wrong with you bitch??!!!
urghhhh!!
you're irritating and annoying the people you love..
and they are getting sick and tired of the crap you're giving to them!
BUCK UP BITCH!!
URGHHH!!

i love my boyfriend.

awesome place.awesome people.

its LionelLewis!!

& AideIskandar*roarrrr (haha!)

loveyoumanymany

wahh.. somebody change skin sehh..
abeh action lawa..
memang lawa pon..
hahahah..

sorry for the absence..
been busy these week.
jam packed with events events and more events..
thursday had to drop by at Suntec City Convention Hall for the Sports and Fitness Expo event..
waste of time lahh..
we were only there for like what.. 30mins??
just for a briefing lahh..
omg Adidas booth is damn big lahh.
the biggest booth there.

Friday was the Soccer Clinic with the Sleague stars..
there was Aide Iskandar and oh so favourite Lionel Lewis was there..
there were couple more like Isa Halim, Mustafiq Fahrudin, JiaYi, Alexandra and more..
it was damn hot that day lah can..
i turn almost instantly immediately black lah..
and it was baby's birthday..
how great..
after all the shits.. we went to eat at Sakura.. Han's treat.
it better. hah.
then some of us had to go back to work for the Expo thing..
the rest took day off..

Saturday and Sunday was my morning shift at the Expo..
Saturday was fucking busy can..
we sold like 110 shoes on Saturday..
yeah right for the 100bucks..
bleahs.

Sunday i had no mood to work..
main reason was tired.
another reason was that it was the last day..
so.. slack lor..

after that i met my baby boy for a movie and dinner..
i wont be seeing him until Friday.. Thursday hopefully..
boo.
fuck confinement..
i havent called him today.

3blows.
didnt feel the pain until hours later.
funny.
i could still talk to my soldier after that.
compared to last time.
i couldnt even breathe.
guess i got immune to it.
hmmm..

ellaprincess
liamamadrama
diidiwondergirl
haiqiboymickey
babysoldieridiotbacingilercepaimylifesaver
i miss you all.
indeed i do.

fly me to the moon.and let me play among the stars.

forever.

HORNY

hey people..
sorry about the template thingy..
i was too busy to finish editting the new template thingy i added on..
not much different but yeahh..
sorry about that.

there's so many things going on right now..
i mean especially this week.
its only mpnday and the stress level is like fucking high la cann..
and home doesnt help cause they dont understand or rather dont bother to understand how or what im going through.
all they know is i go school,be back home and get my diploma at the end of the 3years.
its sad cause their are my family..
but they are the least supportive people..
you get now??
urgh.
dont tell me i cant be rebellious.
dont tell me i cant rude.
just be because he's my dad doesnt mean he dont have the heart or initiative to even ask what the hell im going through.
dont anyhow scold me and blame my friends for whats happening to me because i choose to do it goddamnit.
yes he's done shit.
you can forget it.
i cant.
never will.
its my choice.
i choose to be angry at him.
still.
mum can accept him.
i can too.
but i will never forget what he had done.
and thats MY problem.
i didnt get rebellious overnight okay, it happen because of that incident.
hell, im not rebellious.
you people just dont understand me.
dont bother to know also.
so be it.
i wont bother to understand your life, at least i try not to.
cause no matter what i do..
you people are always in my mind first.
yes im born, grown up with you people.
but why the hell do i wanna stay when im treated like fuck??
be in my shoes.
try being a child,MIDDLE sister,student,reponsible,initiative person..
NOT LIKE YOU!
all you think is yourself.
what you want you get.
you dont even think if mum got money when you asked from her.
aku nie nak mintak $2 pun takot.
huh.
and im rude and rebellious??
fuck off.
i dont need this la..
i had enough of stress from school already.
so fuck off.
i dont care anymore.
i dont care if im caught wearing sleeveless.
i dont care if im caught at sentosa.
i dontcare if im caught.
why the hell im am suppose to be caught at??
fuck.

wont be updating till december.
if i do.. means im having a fucked up day.
hah.
ciao.

Adidas Sample Sale

Saturday was awesome.
i should have taken the boots too. damnit.
i love my shoes, and the adidas slippers!
finally i got the slippers!!!
hee.
im glad my baby like the shoes..
hee.
urghh.. i should have taken the bootss..
damn nice lahhhh

okay, you all dont know what im talking about..
well, too bad!! cannot know!!
hahahaa
=)

gtg..
work work work.
ciaozz..

craved on skin.
In your heart.
=)

me and Aisha @ Kak Syamirah's Wedding.

*smiles..

off day. not off day.

OSIM Corporate Triathlon was quite okay i guess.
Raymond picked me up in the wee morning and we headed for EastCoastPark where the event was held.
Partnered with See Siew Boon, the crazy, talkative, never-ending comment for everthing(haha!), it was fun..
seeing how people handled and getting ready for the race..
some seemed very relaxed..
most of them.. kan-chiong spider..
kate Singaporean..
hah.
the first wave started at 930am.. damn 'early' cause we have to be there at 6am??!!
fucker.
and give 10bucks only to travel to ecp with midnight charge??!
bloody irritating.
luckily our in-charge, Mr.Wei Teck, got us another 5bucks addition.
THANKS!!
like suddenly i got money.
hah.
which reminds me..
i have yet to settle the taxi fare for Zara and Ryan.

after that i quickly make my way to Marsiling CC for Kak Shamirah's wedding.
"Selamat Pengatin Baru kepada Shamirah dan Illyas. Semoga berkekalan hingga akhir hayat," the mc spoke..
i was making a face..
i could not believe she's already married!!
Kak Diya biler??? *winks..
hahahha..
what about my sister?? hmmm..

i miss my soldier like bloody much.
even though i meet him like every other day when he's not on duty but i fucking miss him can..
like now..
oh, today im off the whole day but my soldier got duty!!
boo..
miss you..

fuck.
im gonna miss Ella.
she's going back Indonesia tomorrow.
fuck.
i havent get enough of her.
i will never get enough of her.
urghh..
i hope i can send Ella to the airport which is like 5am in the morning, i think??
boo...
can i have a say in this??
PLEASE DONT GO!!!
BOO..

till death do us apart??

fucked up day

1day after the 3rd month.
screwed up.
fucked up.
i hate this.
i hate being angry with him.
thing is i dont know how to.
either i just cry or laugh whenever im with him.
never angry.
not in front of him at least.
fucked up.
i hate this.

Donuts,IceCream and Cookies

FOUR LEAVES
Donuts set (1 dozen)
Flavours:
Choco-Nut Donut, White Choco Button Donut, Choco-Almond Donut, Choco Button Donut, Rainbow Donut and Strawberry Donut.
1 dozen will consist of 2 flavours each.
Usual price: $12
Selling Price: $10.80

GELARE
Waffle Basket Sundae
Usual Price: $7
Selling Price: $6.30
Single Scoop Ice Cream
Usual Price: $4.20
Selling Price: $3.90
Double Scoop Ice Cream
Usual Price: $6.80
Selling Price: $6.40

FAMOUS AMOS
Chocolate Chip with Pecan Nut 215g (Cookie Canister)
Usual Price: $15.90
Selling Price: $13.50
Chocolate Chip with Pecan Nut 190g (Medium Heart Tin)
Usual Price: $13.80
Selling Price: $11.70
Chocolate Chip with Pecan Nut 100g (Bear Tin Round)
Usual Price: $9.20
Selling Price: $7.80
Butterscotch Chip with Pecan Nut 215g (Cookie Canister)
Usual Price: $15.90
Selling Price: $13.50
Butterscotch Chip with Pecan Nut 190g (Medium Heart Tin)
Usual Price: $13.80
Selling Price: $11.70
Butterscotch Chip with Pecan Nut 100g (Bear Tin Round)
Usual Price: $9.20
Selling Price: $7.80
No Nut Chocolate Chip 215g (Cookie Canister)
Usual Price: $15.90
Selling Price: $13.50
No Nut Chocolate Chip 190g (Medium Heart Tin)
Usual Price: $13.80
Selling Price: $11.70
No Nut Chocolate Chip 100g (Bear Tin Round)
Usual Price: $9.20
Selling Price: $7.80

Details:
1 orders to be made by 6 November 2007, before 6pm. (Negiotiable)
2 payments to be made by 7 November 2007, before 9pm.
3 no changes will be made after payment.
4 delivery will be made, either personally or to home, according to your preference.
5 delivery will be made only after 22 November 2007. Will be contacted further.
6 for Four Leaves and Famous Amos; products are advised to be consumed within 2days and 3 weeks respectively to ensure freshness.
7 for Gelare; given in form of vouchers. Valid till 30 April 2008. Non-exchangeable for cash. Not valid in conjunction with other promotions/ vouchers/ special offers.

Please email/sms me for further enquires.
sb_rapper@hotmail.com
If not, just leave a tag with your email.
I will contact you upon delivering.
I hope you guys can support me in this project.
I would really appreciate it.
Open to all.
Thank you.

Under the Stars

i ended up in Sentosa after settling some stuff..
been a long time since i step foot on the so-called 'another country'..
both boyfie and me had a hard week and we just want to be away from everything and i guess Sentosa is the best and quick getaway from the world..

it would be a better place if there wasnt any bitches, motherfuckers and assholes ruining the almost perfect planet called Earth..
they call me mother nature too. haha. lame.
thank you my love..
i love you so..

tomorrow.. or more specificly today..
i'll have a briefing or the Osim Triathlon (did i spell it correctly??dont care anyways..) at 930am and my team are meeting at Redhill mrt station at 915am..
after that i'll be going for Raya outing with secondary schoolmates..
and tomorrow.. or Sunday..
i have an event for the Adidas Monthly Women Run at VivoCity..
reporting time at 745am at Harbourfront mrt station..
i'll be damn shagged la cann..
omg..
luckily the following week there wont be any event..
i'll get 4hours off..hopefully five..
hee.
and i have to submit my Great Eastern Women 10k Run report by Monday and i havent done anything yet..
urghh..
damn big balls!!
urghhhh!!!

enjoy pictures!!

crazy and idiot.

2 extra people inside. lol.

In-Charge Muthafucker!

Great Eastern Adidas Team.

beating down the sun.

stepzz..

.gayboy.niggachick.

its not that glamourous.

the following are what happen when guy starts to cam-whore...

....

....

!!!

PEACE OUT BITCH!!

hot pants

MORNING!!
no, im not high.. im just trying to sound high..
cause the fact that im sleepy and tired and sick doesnt help that i have to be in school by 9am everyday sucks..
fucking sucky la can..
im not a morning person damnit.
plus the fucking events thats coming up..
last week was hectic..
being an IC for the first project doesnt help..
and having only 3days to put everything together for my team...
everyone expect good performance and freebies..
lol..
but overall..
i had fun being part of the Great Eastern Women 10k Run..
i dont know about the rest..
but it was fun for me..
i learn new things..
thanks Tang En and Shafira for coming down even though you guys didnt have to do anything..
thanks alot...

this fucking computer fucking slow laahhh..
ccb..
fucking irritating sia..

im excited about the Raya outing this coming saturday..
i hope everyone can make it..
i had to choose between school and friends..
im still figuring things out...
damnit.

yes, school is important for me..
i dont understand how people can go without school..
i mean if you're not schooling, go work lahh..
i dont understand how people can go without both..
then what you do at home??
bring chickies to your place and fuck them ar??
stupid sia..

i miss my soldier..
boo..

shall upload pictures for Sunday event soon..
ciaozz..

safe the earth day. lol.

GREEN!
all together now..
fucking cute lah she!
dad's.
show me the money!
my beloved.
someone told me i look hot in red. hee.
2nd day.
threesome.
her again.
fucking cute lah!

knee injury

im just waiting for the time to go home which is like in 45minutes time..
boyfie waiting for his night firing later..
so its like both of us waiting for nature to do its thangg..
hah.
merepek..

anyways,today wasnt as slack as the first 2days of school..
now we have our events so each of us have their own roles and resonsibilities to do..
so yeah..
from here you can know who do their work or not..
i wanna show that i can be a good leader..
thats why i took up the first project because i feel i can learn more since i had the experience first...
and also they can learn from me!
hehe.
however, it was quite rushy as the event is on this coming sunday..
so i have to do everything by saturday or earlier the better..
we had a couple of meeting sessions just now..
everyone need to get themselves into their working mode.
like really..

i miss my soldier..
boo.
stupid 9am-6pm..

i can handle crap,lameness,cheekopeks and mischievious behaviour..
there's only one thing that i cannot tolerate.
CHILDISH BEHAVIOUR.
its fucking irritating,annoying and ape-ape yang sewaktu dengannye lah..
fucking cannot tolerate such people..
especially when they are suppose to be older and wiser..
and they had to turn out to be childish..
fucking irritating..
i swear if the person disturb me again.. he'll die.
i swear.

i miss my soldier.
boo..

SPT

many apologies for not updating..
been busy with the Hari Raya and with school starting on the 3rd day of Raya is super suckyy...
everybody like have school break and all those shits.. i have to Be stuck in a small room with 11 people doing nothing!!!

just ate lunch..
back to work..
fuck my hands are shaking..

to you know who:
I MISS YOU LAH BACIN!!

Hari Raya was great i guess..
i didnt feel the mood for raya-ing until the adults started to give out the green packets..
haha..
im still schooling anyways..
bleahs..

Raya eve was sucky..
chores, chores, chores..
added with some bullshitting some people cannot resist to bullshit about..
omg..
semoga Allah ampunkan dosanya yang mengumpat orang pada bulan mulia.
amin.

you can write anything about me.
DONT write anything about my boyfriend.
he's MY boyfriend.
i didnt write anything about YOUR boyfriend.
just do us a small fucking favour...
stay out of our life would you??
we dont need you in it..
we dont want you in it.

shall post Raya pictures soon..
im fucking busy with school..

girls..
i'l probably join you guys after i finish school which is after 6pm..
sucky right, i know..
or you guy wanna go out on the weekends..
as in the 3rd week of Raya..
let me know okay..
sorry if i never reply you smses..
im fucking busy..
sorry..
see you girls soon..
tata!

Shit stuff

this tears never fall so much.

Kehadiran Lailatul Qadar

Kehadiran Lailatul Qadar.
datang tanpa kita sedari.
pergi entah siapa ketahui.
Kehadirannya dialu-alukan umat Islam.
dengan menziarah Geylang Serai.
membeli karpet dan tilam.
Pakcik-pakcik tanpa segan-silu menghadap rezeki di khalayak ramai pada pukul 2petang.
apakan lagi anak-anak kecil mahupun yang sudah dewasa.
Marah.
Malu.
Keliru.
Tidak ada perasaan malu pada diri mereka??
Tidak ada perasaan malu terhadap Tuhan yang Maha Esa??
Ramadhan.
Bulan yang mulia.
Bulan penuh barakah.
Disambut dengan alunan lagu raya di radio tiba nya 10Ramadhan.

Aku insan biasa.
penuh dengan kesilapan.
penuh dengan dosa.
Aku menghadapmu Tuhan, sesungguhnya Kau maha Pengampun.
Ampunilah dosa-dosa aku,ibu bapa ku,adik beradik ku.
Ampunilah dosa-dosa umat mu ini.
amin.

the sound of the rain.
the breeze on my skin.
so cold i feel tonight.
peace i feel at last.
i wish you were here with me,my love.
so that i can tell you how much i love you.
how much i miss you.
till end of time baby..

miss the times we spent together..

HOT!

do you notice its blazing hot this few days??!!
omg, im dehydrating even at home and it doesnt help that im fasting!!!
arghh!

okay, school is starting soon.
going for TEP orientation on 9th October at 830am.
so early..
i wonder what we suppose to wear....
argh..nevermind that.
im so freaking excited about TEP!!
its going to be so much funn..
just hope im with the 'fun' people..
lol.

8more days.

listen to the sounds deep within.
what it says.
what it exactly feels.
listen to the sounds deep within.

i miss you.

My beloved ones