anugerah madness

yesterday's Anugerah was the BOMB!!
haha.. i had fun.. although it would have been more fun with Shazana around because she will just scream like nobody's business..
like she's at home like that.. shheeessshhh..
haha.


Uncle Roslan was bloody good la.. i didnt expect him to sing like that because that is not how he usually sing!! im serious..
the suara jantan.. lol.
and i got the 30seconds of fame when the camera shot directly at where i was seated.. i cant wait for sunday to see the encore telecast...
i wanna see how buruk my face was!! bleahs.
im waiting for the pictures to be uploaded because the photographer took a shot at us.. i hope they'll put it up mann..
haha.. although its so unglamorous but what the heck.. haha


im suppose to be in school now but i woke up late so i was too lazy to attend that boirng tutorial for MarketingManagement...
strike off my attendance please.. i care no less.
just gonna attend the lecture for EFMA..
and later tonight i'll be going down back to Orchid Park Sec for a bbq..
finally a gathering!!
girls we should make one too!! my birthday horr!! hahah..
hint rabakk.. hahha..


i guess i'll end here..
finish up my project abit.. i still have the whole of tomorrow so its okay..
sikit-sikit, lame-lame jadi bukit.. hehhee

i miss looking this hot. bleahs

confuuuseee

hello there..
im at home.. yeah at this time... haha.. quite shocking.. lol.
well, school ended at 2pm today.. i was half asleep in all the classes especially in Sport&Wellness.. ask Firdauz.. i was literally slapping my face to keep myself awake.. thats how bad it is..

sorry my previous entry was random.. like incomplete..
i was actually writing suddenly the computer started to give me problems so i just published what i worte.. nyahhha..
peace *grins*

i had a rough night yesterday night.. tossing and turning.. not the usual toss&turn..
yesterday i went to Lia's houe to use her computer cause my computer cannot access to La Senza's official page.. bloody fcuked up.. so yeahh..
i also needed to get away from home.. bleahs..

i saw two awesome bikes parked downstairs right in front of my window..
powderfull sia..
i dont know why im into bikes..
well actually i've been into bikes ever since secondary school just that i dont say.. lol..
oh! there they go... damn.
random azi.
pfffftt..
i really hope to get a bike license one day.
of coz i'll get a car license but i also want a bike license..
soo cool.

my younger sister wont be home for today and tomorrow cause she got camp at school.
amin yarabbal alamin..
hahah.. im so bad..

im so into ElliotYamin's song "Wait For Me".. thanks to Lia *rolleyes*
i'll play it on my blogg..

"I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you
I'll Be Waiting."

my sexy love:)

Damn girl

JustinTimberlake's "Damn Girl" is currently playing in my playlist.
very very very nice song, i believe.

i havent been updating much cause i have to rush my MarketingManagement and ICT project cause i want my 2weeks break to be free of projects... which is impossible cause i have a BusinessLaw, EFMA and Sports&Wellness project which is due after the term break.
mimpi banyak2 laa azi..

yesterday i helped Lynnie with her school project. yup, modelling for her and Ah Liean( did i spell that correctly??lolz..) was fun.. Lien's really fun.
the topic was 'Lynnie, the BimBo'
hahahahahaha..

i finally got to see Nana on friday!!
miss her laa.. although same school but i hardly see her even during lunch..
yelah.. she travel to vivo lorr... haha..

in the midst of summer

this phrase stuck to me for quite sometime..
"can you find love in this mess?"
i think he/she whoever said it is right somehow.
in this mess, this new and modern people, everyone's perspective of love and dating is wayy wayy different than what is was.
i shant go in depth cause you'll get confuse.

oh!my uncle Roslan got into the next round of Anugerah2007!!!
yeaaahhhhh!!!
haha..was screaming when they annouced the results.. he was among the lowest votes buuut.. the judges like he's singing laa come on...
hahaha..

this week has been a rollercoaster ride..
im stress about my projects and ICAs and some other stuff like pffffftt...
and im helping Lynnie for a photo shoot for school on either saturday or sunday..

drawings on tender skin didnt bother me that much.
what shocked you about me, i already expected it.
what you did, didnt shock me.
like you said, its the millenium.
everybody's doing it.
but not me.
never.

to my dearest,
i know we havent meet up that often. you and i have been busy with our own stuff. we'll meet up soon kay dear? remember that i love you and im always here for you. and dont ever think that you'll lose ME okay.. you silly little thing.. take care my dear, and like you said
"Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every 6months" muah.

i need $10,000!!
WHO HAVE $10,000??!!!

coffee!!

currently in school, doing my project and killing time as well cause i have to attend the kickboxing CCA that me and Denise decided it would be fun to join. its something new so i'll give it a shot. today is a very sleepy day.. since the start of the first lesson.. i can hardly keep my eyes open!
i slept in BusinessLaw just now.. gosh. i still hate mondays!

i spent the weekend outside.. i had fun yesterday.. like really.. i went places i didnt know..
OH!! i know how to go WestCoastPark!! *hinthint* hahaa..

damn i'll be busy this week and next.. thank god ICT projet is delayed the week after Vesak day.

i hate the new JustinTimberlake song but it got stuck in my head.. its not nice! but catchy.. like wtf..
pfffftttt..

i was doing my research on La Senza and i came across this very the nice hoodies.. its $13??!!
bedek sehh.. go check out the website if you dont believe me.. aku nie bukan nye boleh percaye sangat.. haha.. but its nice laa.. damn..

i think i'll be home late today..
heck, tomorrow start at 1pm.

nice rite??

torn between two

Jackson told me blogging is a waste of time because when you blog.. its only when you're angry and need somewhere to rant.
i guess he's right somehow.

yesterday i went to Shaf's house for a visit with Lia.thanks babe for following me.
before that school was a bore.. what you expect from BusinessFinance and EFMA huh?? but the two hours break was fun.. i guess we'll be doing this every week..

im going later..i hope it goes well.. no disturbance from family.
pfffffttt. i hardly doubt that.

gosh all ICAs is due in two weeks time!! ALL!!
wtf??!! im starting to regret that i started school later than the rest.

i remembered the time i lost my great grandmother, my grandfather, my grandmother and my cousin.
the grieve. the pain. the sorrow.
its hard to describe.

you are the one.
always been the one.
never cross my mind we'd be apart.
too different in many ways.
neither want to compromise.
nevertheless i worshipped the day.
when we sat under the moonlight.
in memory, you're still the one.
in memory, you're still my one.

Celine Dion-Memory
Midnight
Not a sound from the pavement
Has the moon lost her memory
She is smiling alone
In the lamplight
The withered leaves collect at my feet
And the wind begins to moan

Memory
All alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days
I was beautiful then
I remember the time
I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again

Every streetlamp
Seems to beat a fatalistic warning
Someone mutters
And the streetlamp gutters
And soon it will be morning

Daylight
I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life
And I musn't give in
When the dawn comes
Tonight will be a memory too
And a new day will begin
Burnt out ends of smoky days
The stale cold smell of morning
The streetlamp dies, another night is over
Another day is dawning

Touch me
It's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun
If you touch me
You'll understand what happiness is
Let the memory live again

Look
A new day has begun

like finally!

IM BACKK!!
like finally Blogger fix the problem.. after like how many weeks?? or is it days?? whatever.. it felt long okay.

i'll start with today. its a thursday which means its a long day. school's out at 7pm.. the last lesson is BusinessLaw *yawn*
thanks Amie.. really appreciate it. damn i owe you alot seyy.

tuesday and wednesday is a bore. school's only two hours but all important so need to attend. i have like 3projects if im not mistaken due nest two weeks and i havent done anything yet.. i mean just a bit.. like really a bit. damn it. and here i am blogging.. great.

monday was fine i guess. my fever started to kick in as soon as school's out, so i went straight home and slept... thats all i can remember.. lol. short-term memory.

i actually thought that today is WEDNESDAY!! im so dumb!

how do i say this in a nice way that you wont get hurt?
i just want you to be a friend, someone out from my circle of friends, that i can talk to and i know you'll listen. i just want that.

wahh..i dont know what to say.. i should have something to say!!
i hadnt blogg for a while.. damn it.

i'll catch you guys soon...

sexy not slezy

i know i should be sleeping now cause later i have school at 9am and its tutorial and its gonna be fucking boringg *takes a breather* im just to bored to sleep.. lol.. got such thing mehh?? haha..

yesterday or rather on saturday, i met Nana for coffee and i had fun la.. heheee.. i love it when i can out-talk someone about a complicated subject but i cant apply it myself.. wahhaha.. im so complicated.. bleahs.

so today im suppose to be gymming with Rachel and Tang En but... im so not in the mood already.. ahaha.. plus Rachel's too lazy to go too... so dont blame me only horr.. hahha..

is it wrong to be bad once in a while??
could anyone in a sane mind would think like that?? hmmm..

today's also my cousin's maths exam paper.. i hope he does well la.. if not.. urghh.. im so dead.

im bloody worried about my ct darling la.. if you're reading this my dear..
iloveyou muchkiess!! take loads of care okay..
remember we are always here for you and you know it kan..
MUACCKKKSSS!!! =D
can i visit you? haha.. stupid question.. lol.

i saw Denise on TV! like finally.. haha.
HOT BABE!

even with all the projects, dealing with free-riders and stuffs, i still love school. i can study. i can meet/see alot of people. i can gossip. i can talk. i can laugh. i can smile. i can take my mind of home for a while. i can not think of the things that is hitting my last good nerve for a while. i can spend. i can eat whatever and whenever i want. i can not follow my routine. i just love school.

except when you're dealing with people that is annoying, jerks, sickdicks, perverts, sex maniac, etc... thats a different story altogether...

i need to say out what i feel but when i do that i'll hurt somebody and it'll be my loved ones and its so totally suck la!
urghh! damnit.

i need time for me.

compare this.. and...

this..OMG rightt??! =D

baju sempat switch seyy..haha =P

Anugerah 2007

i watched the second screening for Anugerah2007.

like omg my uncle is so FAT! haha! im so bad.. but its true la..sheeesshhh.

"kebendaan telah menutup mata dan hati nya."

a day with nana

FJ Benjamin

i love myself. i love myself. i love myself.
yes, i have to learn to say that.

im so tired from the week. im trying to be a good student and do my tutorials and try not to delay any projects.
i have an individual project and im glad its individual cause i can do it at my own time, own pace and i dont have to deal with free-riders. yes, i said it.
im doing on FJ Benjamin for my MarktingManagement project... its an ICA1 mind you, so i hope i can aced it cause this year's the written exam is only 40% which means i have to aced all my projects. i so totally suck at projects.
FJ Benjamin is Singapore's own retailer distributing brands such as Gap, GUESS, RAOUL, La Senza, Nike Vision, Point 8, Banana Republic and St James Power Station. yes people, its local.
thanks to Lia for info.. hehee.

nothing much been going on.. just school. i've been hanging out with mostly Tang En, Rachel and Shafira.
yesterday we went to amk hub for lunch cause the whole school is crowded during lunch time. plus we have a 2hours break.. so what the heck.

some people just dont know how to appreciate.

i miss my Ella

Upgrade Ya

French was funn!!
haha.. especially with Wendy!! lols. she cute stuff but very bold.. haha.

today im supposed to end lessons at 7pm but as usual, its only the 'first' week of school so nothing much to do during tutorials except going through the projects and ICAs. so far i have 3 projects. one individual on MarketingManagement and the other 2 is on ICTBiz and NationalEducation. yups.. i still hafta study NE.
pffffftttt.

i love the *ehem* "La'alphabet" (it means the alphabet in French).
bloody cool la! the teacher not bad too. hehee.. i mean not bad as in he very fun la.. lol. i just love the letter "W" in French... pronounced as "dou-ble ve" =D
after the elective lesson everyone was bloody excited.. especially Zul with his German accent.. he's good la, no doubt about that. been speaking German since the last semester.. lol. i just hope i can ace French!!

sometimes things that you do hurt others but you just dont seem to understand it dont you?? even your 'gooood' friend. damn you selfish.

i wish i have a make-up set =(

thanks Lia! =)

yadayada

30April2007
he's hurt, said she.
still? i asked. she gave me a face, agreeing.
tiada niatku meninggalkanmu.
tiada niatku melukaimu.
tiada niatku membuatmu pasrah.
tiada niatku merobekkan mimpi kita.
tiada niatku menghilangkan rinduku.
tiada niatku bermula semula cintaku terhadapnya.
tiada niatku.

1May2007
i am. im scared. im loyal. im fake. im oppurtunist. im friendly. im soft. im self-conscious. im quiet. im materialistic. im paranoid. im fickle-minded. im flamboyant. im spendthrift. im angry. im studious. im hyppcrite. im finding myself.

i miss you 'hi's' and 'bye's'. i miss the way you held my face in your hands. i miss the way we hold hands. i miss the way you put me into your arms. i miss the way you cuddle up to me. i miss the way you make my hair. i miss the way you messed up my hair. i miss the way you explain things in a PowerRanger way that i can understand. i miss the way you understand me in an Xmen way that nobody can. i miss the way you make my day. i miss that moment when the world was ours. i miss you.
______________________________________________
basically the above was what i wrote in my phone cause i couldnt get the chance to use the comp. i've been busy with school. projects coming up. i dont want to be a last minute thing like last semester. i want them to be done and done good. i got the best group members ever =)


till then, miss me yall!!

so unglamourous