biatch alert

to you:
im sorry for all this crap. i just dont know why im feeling like this.
like crap.. more like shit..
i didnt mean to make this so hard on you till you're unable to sleep or eat.
apart from the incident that night.. this is not helping and i apologise.
im really sorry..
haiz..
i told you the reason already..
i just need you now to be there for me and confinement doesnt help.
urgh.
all these happening at the wrong time!!
im really sorry baby..

to you:
i know i hadnt been contacting you..
i try my best to see you..
we dont see each other much anymore babe..
im sorry for not telling you..
i thought of telling you when i meet you..
but that wasnt the case..
so now im mad that you're not replying my smses and returning my calls..
i guess you're busy..
plus im in a irritatable mood so maybe im just being crappy..
hit me up would you?
im sorry if i hurt you in any way..

to you:
whats wrong with you??
why arent you your old self??
what the fuck is wrong with you bitch??!!!
urghhhh!!
you're irritating and annoying the people you love..
and they are getting sick and tired of the crap you're giving to them!
BUCK UP BITCH!!
URGHHH!!

i love my boyfriend.

awesome place.awesome people.

its LionelLewis!!

& AideIskandar*roarrrr (haha!)

loveyoumanymany

wahh.. somebody change skin sehh..
abeh action lawa..
memang lawa pon..
hahahah..

sorry for the absence..
been busy these week.
jam packed with events events and more events..
thursday had to drop by at Suntec City Convention Hall for the Sports and Fitness Expo event..
waste of time lahh..
we were only there for like what.. 30mins??
just for a briefing lahh..
omg Adidas booth is damn big lahh.
the biggest booth there.

Friday was the Soccer Clinic with the Sleague stars..
there was Aide Iskandar and oh so favourite Lionel Lewis was there..
there were couple more like Isa Halim, Mustafiq Fahrudin, JiaYi, Alexandra and more..
it was damn hot that day lah can..
i turn almost instantly immediately black lah..
and it was baby's birthday..
how great..
after all the shits.. we went to eat at Sakura.. Han's treat.
it better. hah.
then some of us had to go back to work for the Expo thing..
the rest took day off..

Saturday and Sunday was my morning shift at the Expo..
Saturday was fucking busy can..
we sold like 110 shoes on Saturday..
yeah right for the 100bucks..
bleahs.

Sunday i had no mood to work..
main reason was tired.
another reason was that it was the last day..
so.. slack lor..

after that i met my baby boy for a movie and dinner..
i wont be seeing him until Friday.. Thursday hopefully..
boo.
fuck confinement..
i havent called him today.

3blows.
didnt feel the pain until hours later.
funny.
i could still talk to my soldier after that.
compared to last time.
i couldnt even breathe.
guess i got immune to it.
hmmm..

ellaprincess
liamamadrama
diidiwondergirl
haiqiboymickey
babysoldieridiotbacingilercepaimylifesaver
i miss you all.
indeed i do.

fly me to the moon.and let me play among the stars.

forever.

HORNY

hey people..
sorry about the template thingy..
i was too busy to finish editting the new template thingy i added on..
not much different but yeahh..
sorry about that.

there's so many things going on right now..
i mean especially this week.
its only mpnday and the stress level is like fucking high la cann..
and home doesnt help cause they dont understand or rather dont bother to understand how or what im going through.
all they know is i go school,be back home and get my diploma at the end of the 3years.
its sad cause their are my family..
but they are the least supportive people..
you get now??
urgh.
dont tell me i cant be rebellious.
dont tell me i cant rude.
just be because he's my dad doesnt mean he dont have the heart or initiative to even ask what the hell im going through.
dont anyhow scold me and blame my friends for whats happening to me because i choose to do it goddamnit.
yes he's done shit.
you can forget it.
i cant.
never will.
its my choice.
i choose to be angry at him.
still.
mum can accept him.
i can too.
but i will never forget what he had done.
and thats MY problem.
i didnt get rebellious overnight okay, it happen because of that incident.
hell, im not rebellious.
you people just dont understand me.
dont bother to know also.
so be it.
i wont bother to understand your life, at least i try not to.
cause no matter what i do..
you people are always in my mind first.
yes im born, grown up with you people.
but why the hell do i wanna stay when im treated like fuck??
be in my shoes.
try being a child,MIDDLE sister,student,reponsible,initiative person..
NOT LIKE YOU!
all you think is yourself.
what you want you get.
you dont even think if mum got money when you asked from her.
aku nie nak mintak $2 pun takot.
huh.
and im rude and rebellious??
fuck off.
i dont need this la..
i had enough of stress from school already.
so fuck off.
i dont care anymore.
i dont care if im caught wearing sleeveless.
i dont care if im caught at sentosa.
i dontcare if im caught.
why the hell im am suppose to be caught at??
fuck.

wont be updating till december.
if i do.. means im having a fucked up day.
hah.
ciao.

Adidas Sample Sale

Saturday was awesome.
i should have taken the boots too. damnit.
i love my shoes, and the adidas slippers!
finally i got the slippers!!!
hee.
im glad my baby like the shoes..
hee.
urghh.. i should have taken the bootss..
damn nice lahhhh

okay, you all dont know what im talking about..
well, too bad!! cannot know!!
hahahaa
=)

gtg..
work work work.
ciaozz..

craved on skin.
In your heart.
=)

me and Aisha @ Kak Syamirah's Wedding.

*smiles..

off day. not off day.

OSIM Corporate Triathlon was quite okay i guess.
Raymond picked me up in the wee morning and we headed for EastCoastPark where the event was held.
Partnered with See Siew Boon, the crazy, talkative, never-ending comment for everthing(haha!), it was fun..
seeing how people handled and getting ready for the race..
some seemed very relaxed..
most of them.. kan-chiong spider..
kate Singaporean..
hah.
the first wave started at 930am.. damn 'early' cause we have to be there at 6am??!!
fucker.
and give 10bucks only to travel to ecp with midnight charge??!
bloody irritating.
luckily our in-charge, Mr.Wei Teck, got us another 5bucks addition.
THANKS!!
like suddenly i got money.
hah.
which reminds me..
i have yet to settle the taxi fare for Zara and Ryan.

after that i quickly make my way to Marsiling CC for Kak Shamirah's wedding.
"Selamat Pengatin Baru kepada Shamirah dan Illyas. Semoga berkekalan hingga akhir hayat," the mc spoke..
i was making a face..
i could not believe she's already married!!
Kak Diya biler??? *winks..
hahahha..
what about my sister?? hmmm..

i miss my soldier like bloody much.
even though i meet him like every other day when he's not on duty but i fucking miss him can..
like now..
oh, today im off the whole day but my soldier got duty!!
boo..
miss you..

fuck.
im gonna miss Ella.
she's going back Indonesia tomorrow.
fuck.
i havent get enough of her.
i will never get enough of her.
urghh..
i hope i can send Ella to the airport which is like 5am in the morning, i think??
boo...
can i have a say in this??
PLEASE DONT GO!!!
BOO..

till death do us apart??

fucked up day

1day after the 3rd month.
screwed up.
fucked up.
i hate this.
i hate being angry with him.
thing is i dont know how to.
either i just cry or laugh whenever im with him.
never angry.
not in front of him at least.
fucked up.
i hate this.