starbucks with girlfriend was fun. i brought out my laptop for her t update her blog (so sweet right?? i know... hee). we talked about almost everything.. i miss that. yes, i do.

its funny how people change so dramatically through the years. somethings i wonder if its the situation we are in or just time that change us completely.. its really hard to explain. plus im not very good with words.

"life is like painting a picture. its difficult.
you need the right set of paint, brushes, canvas, size...
but most importantly, you need to know what picture you're painting.
the message you're conveying. the purpose.
if you do not have the inspiration to draw that picture, the painting will come out lifeless and it wont be attractive or people wont buy it because there is no significance and viewed as worthless.
nothing in a sense. its difficult..."

projects are coming up like whipped cream on a ice blended mocha. i need my energy, my motivation and strength to get this semester over and done with flying colours. i want a 3. i want a 3. im tired, restless and want to have fun now. i need to get back to my books. i need to.

thank you Siew Boon for the lovely present. its so nice to be remembered. thank you.

years have passed and its you he still remembers.
i really cannot compete with you.
i know where i stand.
i am not capable to do all that.
if i have the means and privilege, i wouldnt even want to do it.
because i have morale and conscious.
i take pride in my dignity.
yet, i still dont know why he still remembers you.
im ashamed and im throwing the white flag for i cant fight any longer.
its painful even not to do so.
therefore i congratulate you on your battle already won before it start.
im ashamed and torn.

take care at Japan you little brat.