Dear Baby,

i could still feel your small fingers running through mine. your skin, so soft i wish i had them. i could not forget the way you held my hands with your eyes closed shut. but i know you knew it was me. i could not stop smiling in glee. there you were, in my arms. a beautiful name with a beautiful face. i hope you grow up to be a nice lady, im sure you will with proper guidance. i will always love you.

Dear Baby,

i just want you empathy. thats it. i dont need you to be in the same shoes as i am because thats just not how it works. compromise. i dont know. my head's ringing alert sign all over because my heart's breaking. im starting to feel i cant do this because its too hurtful. i cant do this.

i can do this.

xoxo
Natalie