is this THE sign?

Dear Dreamcatcher,

tonight, i took out the ring representing and put it away in its original box.
tonight, i finally broke down which i've been trying to do it for quite sometime but i failed because of my pride.
tonight, it all ends.

when it was all i needed, it came slapping in my face.
still, i was too naive to accept it.
still, i deny it.
is this THE sign?

my hopes and dreams.
crashed by the waves again.
i tried so hard to prevent them from coming ashore.
they came from ashore.
i tried.

like a knife piercing through the heart.
slowly but surely.
the blood came later after the process.
the pain unbearable, sharp and poise.

i stood there in the rain.
letting the blood flow free.
this is how i feel.
this is what i see.
nothing's good ever coming this way.

so im running and screaming.

so Dreamcatcher tell me, am i ever going to find my prince again?

Wounded,
Natalie