Dear Natalie,

She has turned cold.
I dont know what else to do.
She's moving forward but her heart is stagnant.
Still in 2007.
Im standing right in front of her and i can feel her pain, mostly loneliness.
Tell me, what am i to do?

She reads his blog everyday.
Views his profile whenever she can.
Envies the girls that get to spend time with him.
Curses them for trying to seduce him with their short, tight and revealing clothes.
She aches when she sees a smile on his face, knowing it wasnt her that make him smile so wide.
She aches even more knowing she was wrong to think as such because she knows his heart still beats her name.
But yet, she cant help it.
She just cant.

She just told me, she misses him.
Alot more than usual..
What was i suppose to say?
What did i say? hmm.. i told her its okay, its natural because he's a big part of your life.
Was i right?

She told me again, she should stop reading his blog because it makes her feel sad.
So i went on to read to see what she was talking about, and i understood.
He was still miserable.
And he misses her too.
She always told me she walked away for the best of both of them.
She was happy he found another.
She cried when she found out.
Sang "Already Gone" by Kelly Clarkson after that and i know she did that to convince herself so i let her be.
She cried again when they broke up and told me she'll break her neck for hurting him.

Tell me, how is it possible to feel happy for someone who was your life with someone else?
Im proud of her.
She was selfless even in her misery.
Never did she make it known to him he hurt her for doing that after a month.
I sure did see a change in her.
But i wasnt sure if its for the better.
She seems happy though.
Doesnt it all that matter?
But she ache still, why?

Il write soon.

Much love.