and i vomit out what was left inside of me.
sadness and loneliness.
everytime i was reminded of you.
and everytime, i always wanted to run back to you and hug you so ever tightly.
never wanting to let you go.
yet again.
i just knew i couldnt do it anymore.
i miss how those eyes look at me with a twinkle in them.
and i just know what exact is going through your mind, your heart.
i miss your arms around me, where they belong.
its a definite no, baby.
no.



Broken Strings
James Morrison feat Nelly Furtado

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me, now I can't feel anything

When I love you and so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late, too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
So how can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?
Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

Im thinking of you. Like alot.
But i dont have time to write it all down now.
Il be back. I promise.

Wow.
Its been a year.
And now im back to waiting for another full-time job, which i cant wait to start on.
But first, i have to meditate. Haha.

I cant believe its been a year since i started my first full-time job and earning for the family. Although there are four others who too are providing for the family, i do feel the ache in the back, due to certain reasons.

I must say i have accomplished alot more than i have expected and done things i didnt think i could in a year. Like spending the night by the beach with friends and getting myself an itouch on my first paycheck, without even thinking twice. Being able to give my parents a sum of money from my pay is a great feeling.

There's also things that i wish i could accomplish before the year ends like getting my licence which i aimed to get it as my birthday present this June. Total disappointment. And a great birthday party; double disappointment.

However, these are things in life i believe that keeps me going. Keeps me wanting to achieve them even more, although it brought me down to the ground so hard. Because i believe i can make those dreams a reality. Some dreams are just meant to be kept in bed.

Yakult reminds me of you.
Rainy days reminds me of your warmth.
Sand, sun and sea reminds me of your salty lips.
The full moon reminds me of February 2009.
The stars reminds me of your promise.

Part Of The List
Ne Yo

Style of your hair
Shape of your eyes and your nose
The way you stare as if you see right through to my soul
It's your left hand and the way it's not quite big as your right
The way you stand in the mirror before we go out at night
Our quiet time, your beautiful mind

They're a part of the list
things that I miss
things like your funny little laugh or the way you smile or the way we kiss
what I notice is this
I come up with
Something new every single time that I sit and reminisce

The way your sweet smell lingers when you leave a room
Stories you tell as we lay in bed all afternoon
I dream you now, every night, in my mind is where we meet
And when I'm awake staring at pictures of you asleep
Touching your face
Invading your space

They're a part of the list
Things that miss things that I miss
things like your funny little laugh or the way you smile or the way we kiss
what I notice is this
I come up with
Something new every single time that I sit and reminisce
Oh
Will you live in my memories forevermore I swear
and you live in my memories forevermore I swear

They're a part of the list
Things that miss
Things that I miss
Things like your funny little laugh or the way you smile or the way we kiss
What I notice is this
I come up with
Something new every single time that I sit and reminisce

Whoaaa said whoaaa I whoaaa whoaaaa whoaaaaa
Whoaaa said whoaaa I whoaaa whoaaaa whoaaaaa



And all that is good, will surely come to an end.