i painted my nails!!

heloo.. i just got back from school..
im suppose to do a make-up questions for my cousin's tuition later.. but that can wait..
im drained from BusinessLaw lecture just now..
'fustrated'.. you'll know when you learn BusinessLaw.. then i'll share the joke.. lols

i finally get to paint my nails..
like after 1 month plus im stuck with same old boring uncolored nails...
i painted it red.. hakz..
power.. i was so happy that it came..
usually people would dread it but i like it.
i dont have to solat!
haha..
kay lame..

me and Siti are entering this competition at Seventeen...
im not sure what its called.. something about best friend thingy..
basically, aku telah dipergunakan Siti Nur Rumaishah to be her model while she be my stylist..
its just for the fun of it..
my life is like freaking boringg..
tak kesah la kene buat bende bodoh depan orang.. janji aku bahagia sudah!
i'll update you guys about it..

yesterday was a bore.. although i was out with family..
its like.. sheesshhh..
family is irritating..
i love them but we just dont see eye-to-eye.. especially dad.
i wish i have friends and understanding mother like Ridzwan.. really.
wait, i do have understanding friends.. just that we're all having problems of our own and i dont want to be a burden to any of my friends.. i love them.
it was my grandmother's birthday... went to her house to celebrate..
but halfway through.. mum and my sisters left me, my brother and dad at my grandmother's house.
wth.
i was pissed because they didnt ajak me along...
but what i was more angry about is they didnt even tell me where they were going!
what kind of family is this??
all you all think is im angry because you didnt give me money??!!
f.
how am i suppose to sit home and be goody goody when you all treat me as if i dont exist!??
how am i suppose to tell you whats going on in my life when you do that??
how?
macam maner?
tell me how... im tired of being scolded and i know you hate scolding me too.
only me.
tell me how.
i want to know how.

18years and you still dont know me. maseh tak tahu azi.
thank you family.
you make me feel sooo much appreciated.

i know the love for all of us is the same.
but they way you treat each of us..
its a different story altogether.
dont make me ungkit that story.

i hope you and your family are well.

i just wana curl up and cry.

wadahell??

currently online with Jackson, Gabriel, Rachel and Tang En.. power pack..
can die mann.. look at the time!! they talking cock now sia.. fucked up.
im suppose to be in dreamland now!!
god.. i better score for my MarketingMangament!
urgghh!

just got back from a very nice thursday! haha!
finally set foot to westcoast park on my own... hehe..
so funn!!

sometimes i just wonder is it my fault that i dont say?
so why do we call ourselves that?
just because everyone else does it, so we have to do it too?
so what's the meaning of it my dear?
im disappointed.
angry.
sigh.
you only find me when you need me.
for what?
i want to be there, happy and sad times.
even though i maybe busy or whatsoever... i care.
alot.
sigh.

you made a fool outta me.
how could you say that?
you promised!
we agreed!
fucked up.
im so mad right now!!

am i that boring??

that day

heloo..i know i havent been updating much, i havent had the time to..
been busy with my projects and such...
im suppose to be in school but due to some reasons im staying indoors..
still, i need to go to school tomorrow in the morning at 9am..
blame Siew Boon cause he cant make it in the afternoon..grrrrr..

hell! next week school's back on.
damn it.
i havent spent time wit my girlfriends yet!
wheyy..jadi tak thursday kawan-kawan??
wahhahaha!!

can i go swimming again please?
that pool is so nice la.. so big somemore..
ohh.. haha.. i went swinning at the CSC Bukit Batok..
it was free last weekend cause it was their official opening.. hehe
we didnt know it was free till we get there *lucky charm*
hahha..bleahs.

i had an emotional rollercoaster this past week.
i hate it.
but now im okay, still handling it though.. but okay.
im okay.

Yeay! Roslan got in! hahha!

i went into quiet mode of past tense.

when boredom strikes

heyy..i just watched a movie.. well dvd.. Pocong2.
scary shit.
haha..
im fasting today.. i have 7days if i successfully fast today.. i think i shud be alrightt.. hakz.

i havent been updating.. the fact i have nothing to tell/say.. whatever you all call it..
i havent been doing much neither this term break.. just alot of slacking and doing abit of the projects..
i just realized that most of the projects are due 2weeks after the term break and to complete it, we need the lectures learned after the term break.. got it?
heck.. you dont need to know either..

Anugerah was great this week. Roslan sang 'Merpati'..
i must say he look great in white.. heh..
Afrina was wearing the angel wings.. hahks.. merpati and angel is two different things la..
he doesnt sound like Hady la for god's sake!
and Aliff sucks! you all should hear him sing LIVE..
TV and LIVE is two different thing altogether please..
and the judges are biased too..
honestly, only Roslan is the least good looking guy left in that group..
duhhh.. i realized that, thank you very much.. there's no need to tell me..
i have the reality check long before he entered the competition..
pfffttt..
i dont know how to convinced you people.. especially our malays to vote for the voice and not looks..
sheeessshhh..

enough of that..
i watched Fantastic4 on wednesday at GVvivo..
the movie was great la.. very cool effect and such..
can i watch it again please? haha..

enjoy this pictures..
stay healthy and fit! hahks

freaking bored!

im so freaking bored now!!
im suppose to do my ICA stuffs but im just too lazy la!!
urgghh.. its the holidays and i dont have plans..
actually i do but i cant make it!!
like today!! im suppose to go to my friend's sister's wedding..
does that make sense?? shrugg.
urghhh!
so unfair!
i need new songs mann.. im so boring!!
how many times do i need to say that??
shit.

damn.. Suria's sucha bore.. i mean APM telecast on the firday night??
why not make on saturday? there's nothing on that day anyways..
stupid right? urgh.
its bad enough the show wasnt shown LIVE which is understood.. at least make it on the day which people can actually tune to..
later people just view on youtube then you know..
pffffttt.

omg.. NANA!!!
lets go out babe! im so freaking bored.
lets do vivo or beach-bumming toot..
its summer anyways.. hahah..

damn weather sucks..
just now so nice.. sunny.
now drizzling and cloudy..
kay, random.

the 'leggy' people.

happy birthday!

i havent been updating.. the fact that im busy with ICAs that need my undeniable attention..

the last 3days before today, i had to handle 4ICAs which requires alot of brain work.. yesterday was BusinessLaw and i had to memorize a lot of things!!!

i havent done that for such a longg time!!

but hey, ITS THE HOLIDAYS!!!

well.. term break la..

i wanna thank those that wished me, be it through friendster, sms or embarassed me in front of public..

THANK YOU.

i had SiewBoon to read me my horoscope the week before and it said that i'l have a surprise present and i'l be alone on that particular day... there was more but i forgot..

so how did it turned out??

i did have a surprise present.. thanks dearest *wink*.. i love the present.. thank you.

and i wasnt alone cause i bumped into Mimi at yishun.. and a few other people..

bottom-line.. the horoscope was half true.. stupid. haha..

i dont believe in that crap.. i just wanna see how close it was to the exact event...

omg, im talking in terms again..

pfffffttt.

well, nothing much happen..

i have a lot of catching up to do so i dont think i'll be 'having fun' for this term break..

still, i need a break from this messy and slack semester.. its call the term break afterall.. hehe..

urghh!

buck up azi!

18 years.

thankyou.

i wrote this before

i actually wrote an entry this morning at 12am sharp but it didnt came up and im too lazy to remember all..
i'll just wrote what i remember aight.

yesterday was a big day for my cousin.. he got engaged yesterday..
he was blardy cute.. he thought that none of us were coming to his engagement so he was sms-ing us asking if we're coming or not..
of coz we are dumbfool.. we're your family!
it was fun.. my cousin gave his fiance a Nokia N95.. i mean they each give each other the N95 and a Ripcurl watch.. it was awesome..
there was this gift.. a food gift la.. it was called the 'cake stadium' because it was shaped like the indoor stadium!!
hahaha.. funny shit.

i was so tired today..
although school ended at 2pm i left school with Rachel, Firdauz, Denise and James at 5plus because of the ICT project.. damn there's alot more to do and its due thursday..
im going HealthScience block on the 6th to see some dead bodies..
whahaha.. cant wait! hehee..

i learnt that keeping quiet lets you be in secure of yourself.
i learnt that he shuts up because he wants the best for me.
i learnt that no matter what i do, he will still be by my side.
i learnt that it will not work if it goes on like that.
i learnt that i care about him because i still view his profile and his blog.
i learnt that even though i've moved on, there is still a part of me that hasnt.
i learnt that, that part of me doesnt want to move on.

the gila times.

i still love him no matter how much his genes configure.

i carried this to the girl's house.

tiredness got the better

im tired can?? so damn tired la..
today im finally done with my BusinessFinance ICA1 and MarketingManagement.. im glad its over.
i didnt care if i aced it or what cause i did my best with the time i had.
i know i did my best.. maybe it wasnt good enough..
we'll shall soon see.

next week is more packed.
wednesday: EFMA
thursday: ICT and Sport&Wellness
friday: BusinessLaw
yupp.. and we havent start on our ICT project yet!!
urgghh.. im so tired..

i spent yesterday's VesakDay at johore..
it took us from 12pm to 230pm just to get to johore itself.
we reached our destination at 3pm..
we do our usual errands till 7pm and we were off for home..
another hour to reach singapore... reached home at about 830pm and i kelamkabut do my project..
i didnt bathe till im done with it.. haha..
heck.. studies come first for me.
yeapp.. that's about it..
i studied for my test this morning at 8am when my class starts at 11am..
yeaaa..

the day before, thursday, the bbq went great.. only 4 of the girls seniors turn up.. lame..
at least i got to see Zaq, Del and Peilin..
haha..i got to be the coach for the day for the little juniors..
it was so bloody hot la.. and im wearing black!!
i miss my secondary school days...

this sunday is my cousin's engagement..
so excited..
i like this kind of functions.. brings the whole family closer cause we hardly see each other except for HariRaya.. lol..
i like it.
i still wanna watch Anugerah mann.. hope i can catch it before the function starts..

Nana!
i prefer beach bumming at sentosa or east cost or west coast!!
hehe.. i miss you too sweets..

"kehadiran mu membuat ku bahagia.
kehangatan mu membuat ku rasa.
keegoaan mu membuat ku menyampah.
cinta mu hanya angan-angan semata-mata.
terima kasih kerana menyintai.
diri ku ini yang hina.
akan ku ingat sampai bila-bila.
saat kau tinggalkan ku hampa."

i'll be alone next thursday said he.

everybody crowding around the hottie with the camera