sometimes

sometimes i forget that im in love.
its too darn easy to dismiss that feeling.
been so long i put up with it.
after he left.
then came You.
so sweet and all.
not trying too hard neither.
i feel guilty at times because i never say those three words.
that came out of your mouth so easily.
honest and pure.
i dont know if its true.
but i felt so to.
i know so.

i had a wonderful weekend till that stupid feud happened.
*thank you family.

its funny, how im used to never say.
actual things that happened in my blog.
hah.
i confessed.
azi so dumb.
sighs.
why should i say anyway, its my blog.
so butt out!
even you, who are reading my entry and living in the same house as me!
yes you!
i do read your blog, for your info.
and you're much much much vulgar than i am.
i do my part and shut up because its your privacy.
your room, whatever.
can you fucking respect mine!!??!!
i cant even hide in my own room damnit.
why??
i dont have my own room!!
im fine with that.
really, i really dont mind.
but i do need privacy just like other normal human beings.
i really dont see how you cant see the way i see things...

i hope what Denise said is true.
because if it doesnt, i rather die.
really.

i should stop caring.
they never did.
why should i??

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