....

need to rush through the 40 exercises..
need to work..
need to do alot of stuff...
need.

saturday was fun..
i met my Diana.
YOU'RE DAMN THIN CANNN!!!
so unfair..
boo..
im glad you're okay darling:)

things arent going as well as we expected to be..
sighs..
i hope it'll be better next week..
we'll see..

i love you sayang.

stupid ryan

hello..
im back again..
damn bored..
whatever lohh..
MY blog whatt..
pffffttt..

fucking mad now lahh..
im fucking alone again in the gym..
where the fuck is Ryan..
knnccb!
fucking mad ahh..
dahlah tak buat keje, at least fucking stay in the gym ahh..
knn.
fuck fuck fuck lahh..

i dont mind doing the marketing stuff..
dont get me wrong..
im not trying to win everybody to see that im a much better at doing stuff..
i was just merely helping Firdauz because Ryan wasnt helping him.. get it?
dont know lehh..
there was nothing for me to do also so i help lohh..
im not trying to top everyone in class..
definite NO.

Wei Teck is being irritating by reading my blog out loud while im writing this..
SHUDDUPP!!:P

swollen eyes

currently in school now..
waiting for my baby boy to get here and have lunch with him.
had a bit of a quarrel in the wee hours of today..
what can i say..
i miss him alot..

i was so bored in school, i started viewing almost everyone's profile at Friendster..
hah..
sorry to the people i keep viewing..
one, you have very nice pictures and two, i dont really know who you are..
hah..
so mean..
who cares..
quote:
"its MY blog and i can say WHATEVER I WANT.."
unquote.
bleahs..

been quite a hassle last weekend..
you hang in there dear diana.
its going to be alright.
you are doing fine(:

went out with baby on sunday..
had an awesome time..
miss him alot!

HE'S HERE!
BYE!

the voice within

Young girl don't cry

I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

Young girl its alright

Your tears will dry you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream

Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems

No one ever wants to bother to explain

Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else, look inside yourself

Like your oldest friend, just trust the voice within

Then you'll find the strength, that will guide your way

You'll learn to begin, to trust the voice within

chipped nail polish

omg.
im so bored im posting another entry just a few minutes after the previous one..
hah.
great.

staring out the window
raindrops fall distinctly.
im here inside.
but you're out there.
as these tears fall down my cheeks
wishing you were here.
each moment.
each time.
each place.
my heart cries out for you
wanting to be in your arms once more.
wanting to scream and shout.
why the hell did you leave me on my own.
and walk away like you did.
turning your back on me.
i waited.
i waited.
i waited.
but you didnt turn back.
you didnt.
never did.
i waited.

humming of the birds.
and the buzzing of the bees.
the sun was shining.
and i was smiling.
as though it was the best day in my life.

shit i got writer's block.
gah.

boredom

im soooo bored lah cannn!!!
urghh!!
doing afternoon shift for gym now..
there is four people in the gym and some people using the aerobics room..
wahhlauu..
these people dont know how to go home sia...
its almost 7pm lah cann..
and its Friday!!
no life sehh!!
boringgg...

Im alone at the counter.
the rest went for dinner since i had mine and Kenny is on MC.
only girl working tonight.
i knew i'll be bullied..
hah.
dont mind because there's nothing to do!!
so boringgg!!
asked them to buy me tea.

i miss my soldier very much.
just now he didnt pick up my call.
didnt know he start work already.
i miss my soldier very much.
Valentine's Day also nothing..
boo.

i hope i can see him this Sunday..
miss him very much.

byebye.

Valentine

Happy Valentine's Day to all!!
be it married couples, couples, engaged and SINGLESS!!
SINGLE ROCKS!!
nyehah..

currently in school.
so damn bored cannot work out because the big bosses are here at he gym..
meeting my soldier later for Valentine lunch..
then later in the evening having dinner with my single bitchalization babes..
lol.
i didnt mean it like that.
i miss Nana very much..

i need inspiration on dressing mann...
urghh..

dont know what to write anymore..
hah.

had misunderstanding with baby yesterday evening..
haiz.

bye.

friendship

i just dont understand how or why friends can just be so ignorant and oblivious..
i dont understand how you can just enjoy your meal while your friend just look at you eat.
i dont understand why you must ask the obvious when you know and have already been told that he cannot do what you want him to just because you need it for yourself or more exact, for someone else.
so why still do it??
he's been there for your life, family and girlfriend.
he never cared or take into account for how much you chip in for a meal together.
he never cared.
so why do you?
why repay him with this??
hasnt he had enough of everything?
in fact, what do you know about him now?
all you know is that he doesnt have money, working his ass off everyday, still owe you that 50bucks and he doesnt have money.
and you dare to ask for it back when you know he got nothing?
not even a single cent to eat.
and he send you and your family food when it was your turn at the lower end of the roller coaster.
how dare you.
i've only been there for him for 6months compared to you.
he'll surely stick up for you even though im always here.
he'll surely fuck my ass when he sees this.
duhh, im talking about his friend.
i would be too if i were him.
he still care damnit, even though he doesnt show it.
it shows in his eyes.
i can see it.
i can see the dissappointment.
what kind of friends you guys are.
well done guys.
you did a good job in breaking his leg, and his heart.
well done.
tsk, all to buy a stupid gift.
its still stupid baby.
i'll smash it if you buy that for me when you know you cant afford it.
i'll smash it in your face.
really.
its stupid.
i would understand if he need it for something else.
its stupid still.

he can hate me.
i dont care.
but i cannot take it if my loved ones is treated that way.
its fucking insane.
what the fuck.
and you say you miss fasting month??
there's one in front of you and you're too blind to see it.
urgh.

im sorry baby.
i am still angry over what they did.
even though they dont realize it.
it hurt me to see you like that.
treated like that.
urgh i swear i'll scream at them ah sayang.
i swear.

SALE!

Im selling this pair of shoes.

Interested please tag alright.

Its the limited edition of Missy 'Respect Me', size UK9.5, original price at $192.

Place your price.

i love DIY!

after much struggle and disagreement with my mom...
i finally made my own dress!!!
cool or what!!!
HEAR THAT SITI!!! I DID IT!!
hahah
but i dont know how to use the sewing machine...
boo..
i tried several times but nerves got the better of me and i failed..
i got scared that i would sew my own fingers..
nyehaa!
i turned my old sweater that i wore only once to the first OPSS Arts Panache( does anyone still have that picture?? i lost it!!) into a knee-length tube dress!!
cool lahh!!
it has flower flower on it.
lol.
im so proud..
although i dont know what others might say about it but who cares??!!
i did it!!
i actually did turned my flowery dress into a skirt..
which was cool tooo!
hahahaha!

anyways...
tomorrow will be the last presentation for projects..
and then im off to the gym!!
like finally..
i dont have to study anymore..
damn boring lahhh!!
haha
hope i get A this time *cross fingers.

omg i hate this household!

lemme take a break aite

heyy.. just taking a break from the tedious project.
urghhs..
hate Microsoft Project.
fucking tedious cann..
urghhs.
its almost done..
just need to figure out the critical path..
nevermind..
you dont know what im taking about.
hah.

so yesterday was baby's first day at work..
as usual... he was late..
hah.
no surprise there.
haha.
he said the bus broke down at town..
nyehnyehnyeh...
lol..
got back at 2am.
now he's sleeping like a pig..
haha..
kesian syg i..
miss him lahhh..
everyday he'll be working from evening till wee morning..
only on sundays..
boo.
and i'll be busy with the next round of TEP.
boo..

I NEED TO FINISH THIS STUPID PROJECT!!!
I DONT WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW JUST FOR IT!!!
ARGGGGHHHHH!!!!

shall continue now..
ciaoz..

oh if YOU are reading my blog.. do me a favour..
DONT!