friendship

i just dont understand how or why friends can just be so ignorant and oblivious..
i dont understand how you can just enjoy your meal while your friend just look at you eat.
i dont understand why you must ask the obvious when you know and have already been told that he cannot do what you want him to just because you need it for yourself or more exact, for someone else.
so why still do it??
he's been there for your life, family and girlfriend.
he never cared or take into account for how much you chip in for a meal together.
he never cared.
so why do you?
why repay him with this??
hasnt he had enough of everything?
in fact, what do you know about him now?
all you know is that he doesnt have money, working his ass off everyday, still owe you that 50bucks and he doesnt have money.
and you dare to ask for it back when you know he got nothing?
not even a single cent to eat.
and he send you and your family food when it was your turn at the lower end of the roller coaster.
how dare you.
i've only been there for him for 6months compared to you.
he'll surely stick up for you even though im always here.
he'll surely fuck my ass when he sees this.
duhh, im talking about his friend.
i would be too if i were him.
he still care damnit, even though he doesnt show it.
it shows in his eyes.
i can see it.
i can see the dissappointment.
what kind of friends you guys are.
well done guys.
you did a good job in breaking his leg, and his heart.
well done.
tsk, all to buy a stupid gift.
its still stupid baby.
i'll smash it if you buy that for me when you know you cant afford it.
i'll smash it in your face.
really.
its stupid.
i would understand if he need it for something else.
its stupid still.

he can hate me.
i dont care.
but i cannot take it if my loved ones is treated that way.
its fucking insane.
what the fuck.
and you say you miss fasting month??
there's one in front of you and you're too blind to see it.
urgh.

im sorry baby.
i am still angry over what they did.
even though they dont realize it.
it hurt me to see you like that.
treated like that.
urgh i swear i'll scream at them ah sayang.
i swear.