baby you

My Baby You
Marc Anthony

As I look into your eyes
I see all the reasons why
My life's worth a thousand skies
You're the simplest love I've known
and the purest one I'll own
Know you'll never be alone

My baby you
are the reason I could fly
and 'cause of you
I don't have to wonder why

Baby you
there's no more just getting by
You're the reason I feel so alive
though these words I say are true
they still fail to capture you
as mere words can only do
how do I explain that smile
and how it turns my world around
keeping my feet on the ground

I will soothe you if you fall
I'll be right there if you call
You're my greatest love of all

Arianna I feel so alive

as tears roll down your cheeks and mine,
i didnt care if anyone saw mine.
all i want is to stop yours,
which no one can ever see one.
it breaks my heart to see you this way,
its worse when there's nothing was in my way.
the only way was to offer you my hugs,
and the never-ending words, "its okay".
it will be sayang..
it will.

know you'll never be alone babe.

i was surprise she didnt blog about my previous post.
good for her.
siape yang terase tu, pegi mampos eh.

my well wishes are with you.
good luck in the new world.

dilamun asmara

GO BALA, GO BALA, GO BALA, GO!
in a weird, bapok way..
hahaa..

i had fun at ITE Balestier for the soccer tournament just now..
Bala won!!
and the prizes are.. a very nice trophy, 1 bottle of vodka, 1 bottle of rum and 1 bottle of an alcohol that i forgot the name..
lol
they was fuckloads of alcohol at the premises and the contestants keep pumping them before, during and of course after the game..
and their warm up is smoking..
can you imagine!??
thankfully Bala won if not i can gurantee you a fight would breakout..
haha..
and that stupid disgusting jersey number9 from Sahara winked at me..
like wth??
ewww..
hahaha..

shall end here..
gonna call my babyboy..

i think shes naive, insecure, stupid, loud, ugly, dishonest and fat.
i think she never been miserable her entire life and the world evovles around here.
i think shes a fake, minah jepun who trys to act cute and good-goody infront of everybody.
i think she has a stupid accent and doesnt know the meaning of get-the-fuck-out-of-my-life.
which is why i think shes dumb.
i bet she thinks im talking about her now.
which is shows her dumbness side.
wanna bet? haha.
that is, what i think.

sleepless solitude

theres a beat in my heart that spells
insecurity
no matter how much i say
and i know i trust you wholeheartedly
it still remains.
like a heartbeat that never goes away,
like the weather you can only forecast.
and now it leaves me in a sleepless night.

sit down and take a look

so i decided to blog now..
before i start my projects, or continue it to be exact..

i sat down at Woodlands Library today with my ipod shuffle and a very good book for 2hours..
i decided to leave when my boyfriend smsed me that he was having his break..
i didnt realized 2hours has passed..
it was a good book..
its a guy's diary.
i know sound damn gay right, but it gives insights into a Britain guy daily (yea, he writes in his diary everyday) life..
about drinking, sex, girls, mastubate, stupid drinking games, girls, sex yadayadayada..
we usually come across female diaries..
thats why i think its good..
not because of his social life,
he writes about how he feels..
and that, not many guys can do..
let alone to write it down and publish it in a book!

i was halfway through reading it and i thought of borrowing the book..
i went to the machine right, slot in my card and guess what it says??
yeap... i have overdue payment..
gahhh!!
i hope nobody borrows the book.
shiaatt.

kay, i better get back to work..
i see the light dimming in for David *adds his last name..
haha

love me and my imperfections

pisses me off

im irritated with two irritatingly annoying people.
one, who always likes to throw/give/wear my stuff without me knowing.
and the other, gets onto my nerves in every aspect of my life.

like seriously,
what the fuck is your problem?
i bought my first pair of pants with my first pay and you decide to throw them away just because i havent been wearing them for a loooooonggggg while..
do you remember you nagged at me because i always wear that pair of khakis? huh??
does it comes to you instantly to do what you did or have you been thinking about it for a looooooongggggggg time huh?
you can even say, "so what first pay, let the pants collect dust"
fuck this shit.
at least i dont throw away a birthday gift given by my sibling even if the are some defaults..
i appreciate things.
the bag can still be used damnit, even if cannot be zipped.
it can still be used.
and down the trash it goes..
tak geram?
ughh!

i appreciate the times i spent with my families on the day before Mothers' Day.
heck, it was fun.
i get to spent with both side of my families..
so why does it matter that i went out the next day although there was still another gathering?
i dont care if people asked about me..
i dont care about the pizza.
all i cared is spending time with my loved ones.
and that week was great..
family on saturday and my boyfriend on sunday.
if only you see the way i see things..
then you'll realized how much i've done to make it work for you and me..

i had depression for the past week,
nobody knows..
i dealt it on my own and im brave enough to admit its depression and not jsut some stress moments thingy..
it was depression..
and i never have depression.
never.
in my entire life.
and here, i have to deal with two irritatingly annoying people who matter to me.
and they only keep on saying that i do matter to, but i dont see it.
yes, phone calls asking where i am in an angry tone is counted as one of them..
*sceptical look*

im tired.
drained out.
hope Chealsea wins tonight.

it was fun.

Fun Facts: Gemini
Versatility is a great keyword for this dual sign.
Expressive and quick-witted, the Gemini presents two distinctive sides to his or her personality, and you can never be sure with which one you're going to come face-to-face.
On one hand, the Gemini can be outgoing, flirtatious, communicative, and ready for fun, fun, fun.
Yet when the other twin is present, you can find this air sign contemplative, serious, restless, and even indecisive.
Both twins are able to adapt to life's circumstances well, making them wonderful people to know. Things are never boring when a Gemini is on the scene.

Friends and Family
Geminians are social and love spending time with friends and family.
There will be times when this outgoing sign would want to go bungee jumping, and there will be times when sitting at home playing cards will suit them.
Either way, friends are plentiful.
Those who can match the Geminian intellect and love of variety will go the distance.
One quality they seek out in others is communication.
The Gemini loves to talk and gain insight from others.
Without a clear flow of talk, the Gemini will lose interest pretty quick.
Family is important, especially those of like mind.
Friendship with siblings is quite common for the Geminian, and time spent together is cherished. Meeting responsibilities with family can pose a challenge at times, but almost always, the Geminian comes through.

Career and Money
The best-suited careers for a Gemini are those that stimulate the intellect.
"I think" is the key phrase for this sign.
Geminians are inventive and often literary.
It's important that the work they commit themselves to doing is dynamic and challenging so boredom doesn't set in.
Careers as a teacher, debater, reporter, writer, preacher, or lawyer are all well-suited to this sign.
Any platform that gives the Geminian room to talk is best!
A sales profession is another excellent choice.
You can expect to see many tools for communication around this sign, such as PDAs, laptops, and cell phones.
Generating new ideas and problem solving are other areas where the Geminian will shine. Deciding between practicality and pleasure can be a tough thing for a Gemini.
While money is a necessary evil, most don't spend a lot of time worrying about where their next dollar is coming from.
They don't put much thought into balancing their checkbooks, yet they manage to get by just fine.
This is largely due to the flexibility Geminians have.

Love and Sex
Fun-loving and always up for an intellectual challenge, the Gemini is a spirited lover.
The talk that precedes the interlude is just as important as the actual contact for this sign, and when it comes to wit, this sign holds nothing back.
Flirtatious and curious, the Geminian will spend time with a lot of different lovers until they find one that can match their intellect and energy level.
The Gemini needs to experience excitement, versatility, and stimulation to feel fully satisfied. Once the perfect match is found, though, the Geminian can settle into a lifestyle for two for the long haul.

Health
Each sign has a part of the anatomy attached to it, making this the area of the body that is most sensitive to stimulation.
The anatomical areas for Gemini are the lungs, collarbone, hands, arms, shoulders, and the nervous system.

Ruling Planet
The ruling planet for Gemini is Mercury.
Representing intellectual urge and the avenue of expression, this planet rules reason, rationalization, words, awareness, and communication.
Its action is quick, and it deals with travel, speaking, writing, trade, and emotional capacity and technique.

Color
The color of choice for Gemini is green.

Gemstone
Gemini's star stone is the Moss Agate.

Lucky Numbers
Gemini's lucky numbers are 3 and 7. =)

Compatibility
Geminis are most compatible with Libra and Aquarius.

Opposite Sign
The opposite sign of Gemini is Sagittarius.

The Perfect Gift
A surprise party, gift certificate to a bookstore, any activity with friends, Scrabble or other intellectual game

Likes
Music, magazines, books, music, blogs, chats with nearly anyone, short trips around town

Dislikes
Repetition and routine, being alone, being confined

House
Natural sign of the Third House. This house focuses on short trips, communication, conscious mind, brothers and sisters, and early education.

Famous Geminians
Hugh Laurie, Johnny Depp, Rudy Giuliani, Angelina Jolie, Nicole Kidman, Helena Bonham Carter

Best travel destination
Switzerland, Wales, London, San Francisco, Melbourne

Strength
Curiosity, ability to share ideas, adaptable, affectionate, kind

Weakness
Scattering energy in too many places at once, fickle in love, nervous, short attention span

Charismatic marks
Expressive eyes, quick, bright, often small-boned, refined features

Best environment
Any busy neighborhood, places where people gather to gossip, bookstores, museums

my getaway

finally i got the chance to getaway from everything..
its funny how me and her can lie down next to each other and keep quiet the whole day..
minding our own feelings and thoughts..
thank you.
i need it.

when your lips met my cheek
i wanted to cry of joy
like a superstar held the hand of his fan
"ohmygod! he touched my hand!!"
my own superstar
everyone staring at us
as you came down and hug me tight
oh i miss you so.

she said i looked like Diidi.

Im so honoured!=)

Ewan McColl
First Time Ever I Saw Your Face

The first time ever I saw your face
I thought the sun rose in your eyes
And the moon and stars were the gifts you gave
To the dark and the empty skies.

and the first time ever I kissed your mouth
I felt the earth move in my hands
Like the trembling heart of a captive bird
That was there at my command, my love.

And the first time ever I lay with you
I felt your heart so close to mine
And I knew our joy would fill the earth
And last and last and last till the end of time

The first time ever I saw your face, your face,
your face, your face

Rosa
Ayat Ayat Cinta

desir pasir di padang tandus
segersang pemikiran hati
terkisah ku di antara cinta yang rumit

bila keyakinanku datang
kasih bukan sekadar cinta
pengorbanan cinta yang agung
ku pertaruhkan

maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
cinta ini tak mungkin ku cegah
ayat-ayat cinta bercerita
cintaku padamu
bila bahagia mulai menyentuh
seakan ku bisa hidup lebih lama
namun harus ku tinggalkan cinta
ketika ku bersujud

bila keyakinanku datang
kasih bukan sekedar cinta
pengorbanan cinta yang agung
ku pertaruhkan

ketika ku bersujud

sister love.

my boyfriend thinks im hot. nyehah!

pounding head

my head is punding like crazy.
i havent bathe since i got home from school.
its 9pm now.
but i bathe in school after running 2x100metres and 2x200metres in under 5minutes.
cool eh.
haha..
hate monday lessons..
i think its the ipod??
lol.

have tons of projects due on the same week after Vesak day.
god, i still havent do anything..
and yet im procastinating..
still blogging..
still going out..
still playing a fool..
and its the 3rd week of school..
its funny now that im dreading to go to school because i was soooooo looking forward for Year3 to begin..
this sucks.

i hate my life.
hate it hate it hate it.
fuck you bitches who make it even more suckier.
cant you go fuck someone else's life??!
leave me alone for god sake!!
ughhh!!

aku hanya mencintaimu.
seluruh hidupku.
tak bisa ku lupa.
tentang penemuan kita.
hingga akhir waktu.
aku akan bersamamu.
walaupun yang lain tidak rela.
aku mendampingimu.
tidak pernah ku duga.
begini jadinya.
hanya Dia sahaja yang tahu.
tentang isi hati ini.
bagaimana mereka kecewa kan daku.
tanpa mereka sedari.
mungkin mereka tahu.
aku pasrah.
tidak tahu hendak berbuat apa.
namun aku tahu.
aku tetap mencintai mu.
dan Dia lah saksi cinta kita.

take me down slow

too many times i try
yet none i succeed
nothingness become emptiness
to the extreme
yes,maybe.
with you by my side
Lord, help me
im too young to die
without knowing the meaning of affection.

i could still taste the sweetness
of the cigg bud on my lips
"just one puff is all i need, please"
to get it off my back
whatever it is.
yet the emptiness remain
knock me in the head, someone
wake me up from this never-ending dream
i dont want to be in it
i beg you, please.

my luscious lips

from the time we met

to where we stand today

i never felt the slightest bit of regret

kissing that lips of yours

i'd put my life on the line

for whatever that may come by

for you are my life and soul

only we can separate us

and that shall never come

reality check check checccckkkkk

as i dance around in the middle of the rain

kicking my heels away

my red Zara outfit drenched into my skin

my newly permed hair gelled upon my head.

and i looked up at the moonlit sky

dazzling stars shining bright
despite the clouds bringing the storm.

i stopped and stare

at this stranger holding an umbrella

with me under it.

his brown eyes so seductive

i could not help but stare

he smiled and held my hands

and i bravely followed him

i just knew i was safe.

peace out ya'll

Dear Friends

Ben E.King
Stand By me

When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No I won't be afraid, no I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me

And darlin', darlin', stand by me, oh now now stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me

If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
And the mountains should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, I won't cry, no I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me

And darlin', darlin', stand by me, oh stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me, stand by me-e, yeah

Whenever you're in trouble won't you stand by me, oh now now stand by me
Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me

Darlin', darlin', stand by me-e, stand by me
Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me

thank you darlings.

in my own world

in my own world
i picture everyone to have wings and wands
to make wishes that instantly come true
sleep in marshmallow beds and cotton candy blankets
with king-sized alarm clocks made out of chocolates.

in my own world
i hope to see myself and my beloved ones at sideline beaches
chilling by the sea with sun shining over our heads
wearing loose clothings and big straw hats
sitting on wooden bench with fruity drinks that has little umbrella in it
wearing huge ass shades and smiling as the waiter offer to apply sun tan lotion on our backs.

in my own world
i wish everyone is kind, caring, lovable and open-minded
everyone are friends and no bitches in sight
there are no politics and hypocrites
no judgements and kepos
no racisism
no skin colour groupings
no religion differentiation
i wish everyone can get along.

in my own world.

i picture.

i hope.

i wish.

no time to blog
busy week

stay tune if you care
hah

left unspoken

HAPPY 9th MONTH BABY!!!
omg its fucking 9months..
haha..
everybody thought we'd reach our 3rd or 4th year..
nyehah..
i miss you sayang..

im all yours.