Wednesday, May 21, 2008

pisses me off

im irritated with two irritatingly annoying people.
one, who always likes to throw/give/wear my stuff without me knowing.
and the other, gets onto my nerves in every aspect of my life.

like seriously,
what the fuck is your problem?
i bought my first pair of pants with my first pay and you decide to throw them away just because i havent been wearing them for a loooooonggggg while..
do you remember you nagged at me because i always wear that pair of khakis? huh??
does it comes to you instantly to do what you did or have you been thinking about it for a looooooongggggggg time huh?
you can even say, "so what first pay, let the pants collect dust"
fuck this shit.
at least i dont throw away a birthday gift given by my sibling even if the are some defaults..
i appreciate things.
the bag can still be used damnit, even if cannot be zipped.
it can still be used.
and down the trash it goes..
tak geram?
ughh!

i appreciate the times i spent with my families on the day before Mothers' Day.
heck, it was fun.
i get to spent with both side of my families..
so why does it matter that i went out the next day although there was still another gathering?
i dont care if people asked about me..
i dont care about the pizza.
all i cared is spending time with my loved ones.
and that week was great..
family on saturday and my boyfriend on sunday.
if only you see the way i see things..
then you'll realized how much i've done to make it work for you and me..

i had depression for the past week,
nobody knows..
i dealt it on my own and im brave enough to admit its depression and not jsut some stress moments thingy..
it was depression..
and i never have depression.
never.
in my entire life.
and here, i have to deal with two irritatingly annoying people who matter to me.
and they only keep on saying that i do matter to, but i dont see it.
yes, phone calls asking where i am in an angry tone is counted as one of them..
*sceptical look*

im tired.
drained out.
hope Chealsea wins tonight.
it was fun.

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