BACK TO SCHOOL YAWW!

HURRAYY!!
TODAY MARKS THE LAST DAY OF INTERNSHIP!
IM BACK TO SCHOOL YAWWW!!

god i miss school. seriously. i miss 'listening' to lecturers...i miss crapping with SiewBoon and Firdauz. i miss laughing with Jackson,Rachel and Tang En. i miss my classmates lahh!!
till the day i graduate. cant wait!! =)

beloved,
i woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. i didnt want to talk or do anything; given the choice i didnt want to go to work. its a fucked up feeling to wake up and see messages of you still out. 3am, 4am i can still take it if im told beforehand. but fucking 7am and not knowing? how you feel if you were in my shoes?? you know you know you'll be meeting me later, fine, you didnt know it'll end late. fine. but you said, you ensured, you'll meet me. but what happen? fine, i forgive you. i know and i expected it. i didnt take it against you. but the very next day you want to go buy a piece of plastic?? didnt you think of making up to me?? you start early too right? can meet me right? if i am that important you would, wont you? but instead you chose that piece of plastic. you could ask someone to buy it for you kan if you 'didnt care', given the choice?? (this is what i meant, do you understand now?)
i'll talk to you about the other part soon.

i was bloghopping and i was very very amused by a particular blogger. her expressions was awesome. never have i encounter such an article. its superb. to think she's a spoilt brat. hah. i hope she's not reading this. but i admire her, really. she's a walking idol. i wish im bold enough to highlight my hair of that shade. i wish im courageous enough to go for my dream careeer. i wish my vocabulary was as superb as hers. hah.
yeah, kalau ye pon edit la makcik oii.. love that. haha

To succeed is easier than to fail

im super lazy to upload pictures of the photoshoot day to my computer.. well, most of them are with Siti.. haha.. so sabar menanti yee.. anyway, you can see us in 17 magazine December's edition.. please dont forget to vote for us! sempat promote. nahh, we actually dont care if we win or not because we had fun and already won a bundle of prizes! no regrets babe! ahaa.. for those who dont care, please dont bother wasting your money to buy the magazine just to see us(although we appreciate that, thank you very much). finally! all the hassle and the brainstorming and super pressurizing moments are over! im back to becoming me, wear whatever i want without having people analyzing my outfit, whether its "nice outfit" or "omg she's so cool" because its so annoying. really. ugh.

the photoshoot went well for me actually. i didnt get to see Siti when she was doing hers cause i was getting my hair done in the other room. damn. i want to see lahh.. unfair. she snapped alot of photos when i was doing my shoot, so i played along to keep myself occupied while they analyze my pictures. its funny lahhh.. i like to make faces when taking pictures.. my friends especially Fazilah always scold me for not smiling. ahhah.. i had a Canon camera in my hands, so pose lahh.. hahaaa... gosh. its so tiring to smile 'happily'.. like what the hell is that??! and make you eyes wider? how the fuck?? hahah!! overall... the outfit turn out great.. i hope it looks as good as it was in the magazine. GAP sucks la really!! VOTE VOTE VOTE! hahhaa!!

hello dreamcatcher,
i sooo glad you admit it that i was right about the whole getting back thingy. it would have been so worth it. you should have just walk up and slammed dunk! you would have won easily. haiz.. thank god you're a nice person. thank god you were in a conscience mood at that moment. thank god you have loved ones that are on your side. you are so blessed.
i adore your loved ones. i wouldnt think of doing as such. i mean, i wouldnt want to involve the old adults of the immatured being because it was a feud between two people, well... one actually.. psycho killer. i noted the point, and i agreed. awesome. you are really blessed child.
i say, let it be. if it comes up again, you know you're already prepared. well done. well done.

awesome kids

fuhh!! boy am i tired!
today was the first time ever i went shopping with my classmates.. haha.
MarinaSquare was the destination for Shaf's Nike sandals which she's been eyeing on for more than 6months. funny its still on the shelf. then we had dinner, although both me and Khai were full but this annoying brat keep insisting that her stomach is growling.. grr.. i was tired lahh.. made a super long pitstop at Ripcurl because Shaf kept complaining about her heavy baggage. ahha.. annoying brat. lol!

i bumped into my favourite teacher yesterday evening at the MRT station. he was on the phone so he gave me a hug first while talking to the person on the line. that's like the first time ever he did that to me. was abit shocked.. lol. its weird how easily i could just talk to him as if we met a few days back.. i was glad to meet a familiar face. i miss school lah, seriously!

countdown: 5 working days left!!

"you are the type of person that would fight for the things you believe in..."
i wonder.

dear dreamcatcher,
i am disappointed that you chose not to do anything when the tables are turn back at you and this time you did not start the fire. i know why you made that decision, but i think you are wrong. this was a great opportunity for you to be angry, mean and devilish. because no one can lend a helping hand. all alone, and it would have been awesome to see the fear portray. you know what i mean?? i know you do. deep inside you know you want to. you just dont want to handle the aftermath because its tiring and hurtful to your beloved. many people would be involved and it sucks to see them trying to cheer you up but they can't. they simply can't. and that sucks, doesn't it honey?? yes i know. cheers to you for being a mature adult love. what goes around, comes around. i think the debt has already been paid.
PS:may Heaven take care of you, child. and may Heaven forgive the one that gave you up intentionally or not.

i miss yours.

i was bored after completing my task so i did this while waiting for lunch time.
its real fun except that i wish the software allows me to use my own photo as the background.. going to find some other programme that can do that other that photoshop which im such a dumb dumb using it.



i've been bloghopping alot, since i have nothing to do. i love reading good posts with beautiful vocabulary and interesting phrases they come up with. i'll read them even if it makes my head dizzy because of the little fonts they use. i'll even read my enemy's. i wish i could write like that. it makes the person so much interesting just by reading their posts. i know my boyfriend is a good writer. so bloody unfair.

planning a trip to Bintan. i just dont see it happening. money wise,people wise,passport wise. so unfair.

it'll be 8 more days as of today till end of IPP!! whoohoo!!
cannot wait to get back to school.
i like school. because i know how my grades are doing unlike work.
i think i'll stick with school after graduation.
we'll see.

i miss Diidi.

till the next boring entry.

they are so hot.

reminisce

Diana Ross
Behind Closed Doors

My baby makes me proud
Lord, don't he make me proud
He never makes a scene
By hangin' all over me in a crowd

'Cause people like to talk
Lord, don't they like to talk
But when they turn out the lights
I know he'll be leavin' with me

And when we get behind closed doors
Then I let my hair hang down
He makes me glad that I'm a woman
Oh, no one knows what goes on
behind closed doors

My baby makes me smile
Lord, don't he make me smile
He's never far away
Or too tired to say I want you

And I'm always a lady
Just like a lady should be
But when they turn out the lights
He's still my baby to me

And when we get behind closed doors
Then I let my hair hang down
Oh, he makes me glad I'm a woman
Oh, no one knows what goes on
behind closed doors

oh, behind closed doors
I let my hair hang down
I'm glad that I'm a woman
No one knows what goes on
behind closed doors

Behind closed doors
I let my hair hang down
He makes me glad I'm a woman
No one knows what goes on
behind closed doors
And when we get behind closed doors
Then I let my hair hang down

my lips are sealed

currently at work, had nothing to do in the morning.. at least now i got something to do.. thank god. i hope to have something to do tomorrow as well.. i keep chasing but they just dont bother.. i didnt give up though, just loosen up abit so that they still have some air to breathe and not feel like im breathing down their neck asking for tasks. hah. funny. have you ever met someone who asked for work/assignment?? hah. crazy person.

can i please have the picture at the runway.. like now??? please!!!

the weekend was crazy..

Seventeen SuperStyling for the second time was worth it. we both had alot of fun and we made new friends, Crystal and Junying, the awesome duets that made a stunning appearance when they made their entrance to FashionBar. this year was more organised although the place was too small to hold all of us in. but we manage to sit with the lovely twins, HAHA and LALA including their friends, so nice to see them again after one year. boy did we win alot of stuff, and half of it we dont remember what we won. but the most awesome award was the runway contract worth $1600 by runwayconcepts! i so want the pictures that Nixem took when he asked me to the the catwalk on the runway! i was so damn nervous i was sure it showed all over my face!! overall, it was great. Siti, im waiting for the pictures. same goes to Nixem!

Party at FashionBar

im gonna get through this, this i believe.
next year will change my life, i hope i have faith.
i have to be strong, God please help.
i shant regret this, i will not fail.