Monday, March 30, 2009

as i sat..

i sat there, numb. drenched in my own clothes, water from the shower head and my own tears. i cried my heart out. reason, unknown. the song keep going on and on in my head. as i sang it out, i felt a knife piercing through my heart. bit by bit. inch by inch. the pain, you can hardly feel. but its taking the life out of me with every strike. as i calm myself down, i feel the slightest bit of emotion that i longed felt.


i cleansed and put on my gear. i feel the ultimate love as i knelt down. i felt so close to Him. i could feel Him. i missed Him. i lifted my head, along with the tears that soaked the prayer mat. all feelings i felt. yet i felt nothing.

as i sat in pain, anxiety, endurance.
as i sat wanting acceptance, love, assurance.

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