ridiculous minds

those eyes.
sends an emotion so foreign to me.
numb my being, my feelings.
my mouth spoke no words.
my body showed no reaction.

its been so long i felt this way.
i didnt know or remembered how i handled it then.
my emotions, a roller coaster.
my thoughts, so distant.

laughter and smiles is all you see.
my heart cries silently.
the reason unknown to me, myself and i.
i fall again.

time to do something to myself.