as far as i know, i hate technology. it undermines the power of love and trust a person has for another. i still like the old fashion way of writing a letter and posting it, and waiting for the mailman to drop your letter into the mailbox. the feeling of excitement that rushes through your body. a good kind of excitement, not the kind you get from the service provider for exceeding your limit of contract. that excitement i always get, kinda immune to it now. but i cant switch off my phone like i could last time. i have a boyfriend, which the way of communication is the handphone, even though he could call my home.

i dont want to feeli like this anymore. i dont want to feel helpless and useless. i dont want pity and sympathy. i dont want all that.