hurt so good

with just a blink of an eye i've lost.
it made me wonder why i keep up with it.
i have never question anything.
i have never judged.
i have never felt so betrayed.

maybe im over reacting, i dont know.
but it hurts.
yes, you were there.
but gosh, how could you.
and it was family im told.

im in no position to correct, just opinions.
i have no words to say.

in all the pictures, i see happiness in your eyes.
im glad, happy for that moment you managed to achieve on your own.
for all the times with me, i do not see that.
i always wonder if its the people around you.
even me?
i admit defeat and i shall not try anymore.
im angry, oh so mad.
you should have known me better.