you know how people hate Mondays because they have the blues??
well, i had a horrible Monday... and i wouldnt call it Monday blues.. more like Monday red as is 'red flag'... ugh!
i shall not revive on this horrid incident that you would only want to go through it when you were in secondary school, but hey.. life aint easy, so suck it up Azi!

6 bloody months.. what in the world am i going to do till 6 month?? ugh.

ive been missing alot on life actually.. i want the sun, sand sea.. i want to rollerblade in the blazing sun and enjoy the breezy wind blowing in my hair, face and armpits. i want to scream in glee and laugh and jump when i see something funny. i want to fly in the air and sail down in maximum speed till my lips can touch my eyes.. i want to capture funny moment on my Epson camera (when i actually owns it!) and hear the 'click-click' sound it makes.. i want to be silly and sing to all the old Disney tunes in Lia's Ipod. i want to eat icecream and have brainfreeze when i slurp on Mr.Slurpee too fast.

ive been so focus on my future, so worried about the next stone to step on, so angry when my mom keep saying i finish school already, so disappointed that my family chose work over my graduation day, so clueless about what i am going to do when i step out of poly...

that i havent been Azi for quite a while. i forgot how to be Azi. now im jus Azirah. i know i sound crazy now. im a Gemini. i have split personality. i know its just a horoscope but i actually believe it because its true. i talk to me out loud sometimes that i think if people were to hear it, they would think i just graduate from IMH. really. thank god only a few people know about this blog eh. pheww.. lol

i know everybody has their own alter ego and some actually name them. its just an imagination. but for me, this person.. this alter ego (her name is Natalie by the way.. say hello=D ) actually exists. i acknowledge her. Azi acknowledge her. no, its not the voice within. its another voice within.

sheesshhh... what am i saying. you wouldnt understand it anyway.. its crazy talk. only people who admits that they are crazy understands. people who are admitted in IMH, they always say they are not crazy. so, do your math.

so many doors to open but you can only open one.
which one?
the one that have the big dollar sign on it;
or the one that pasted Tyra Banks picture on.

lalala...

let me sleep soundly tonight