please look up the song For Once In My Life and Are You Lonesome Tonight by two of my favourite artists.

like a sting ray. it burns out of sight. maybe it hurt lesser if you dont see it coming. that way it'll be much easier to heal the pain.

as the clock chimed for the last time, i got ready to leave the house. i never felt this way before. i fear to step out of home. but like man, we have no choice. so out i go, into the hurtful world i fear. and whilst the wind blow into my face i let a sigh of relief. i'll start this day afresh, i told myself. i will live this day to the fullest. because if tomorrow never comes, i fear i'd never get the chance to live it all. and i think it got better. i am not mad nor needy. i was calm and myself. i am happy how it went along. i am back. im back baby.

this joy i longed felt. like the first time i laid my lips on yours. so sweet and tender. and i want more and more. the absence of a being still haunts me. but i bid in respect. forgive me for being hurt. because i love you more than life itself.

with only a picture left as a memory. i plant it in my sleep. whenever i dream of you, i weep. and i know He weeps too. this is my silent goodbye and apology, to you my love. you're an angel in disguise, i wouldnt want to keep.