reminisce
wth did i do til its so wrong for you to even look at me in the eye? was it something i said or am i just being too close? remember what happened the last time? i dont understand and i dont want to understand. im tired of being there. there, there. you know? they find you. you confide in me. so what does that make me? im blessed. thank god. i love you. but im tired. im a human too. who wants to be pleased just like a normal human being. even you. its amazing how easy it is to please me. like a simple stupid sms that i usually send that made you smile or even laugh out loud. no hassle. no balloons or cards or party masks. or even fanciful outfit. maybe im just being paranoid. but it hurts deep inside. im still hurt.

now
i just thought it was stupid. thats why i didnt say anything when you confide in me. because this is us. us. you know, us. the us would never take that issue to heart and it wouldnt even matter. but then again.. being us, we're honest with each other. we ought to be upset with each other.. to be rude to each other. but both of us know that at the end of the day it meant nothing. i thought it was that way. but i understand. so totally understand. it didnt matter. i knew something was wrong and i knew it was me. thats why i didnt go in the water. i wasnt on the phone with tim. but i didnt want it to be a big matter and terbawak-bawak.. i guess you were just tired. i knew you would be upset when you read this. im never good at talking.. im sorry. really im sorry.

too many emotions and happenings lately.
i had fun with Diidi, Nad, Dee, Wan, Nana and Lia on Friday.

//who the fuck ask you to putar belit your words?

i miss you soldier.
i fucking miss you.

where you'd go?