Dear Miss DreamCatcher,

i feel a little light-headed today. i was feeling lazy so i wore a dress and my 'adidas' boots to school, even though i wasnt the one taking the award. i was abit dissappointed i didnt get the award, really. i put a lot of effort, time and sweat. oh wells. i couldnt do anything about it now, can i?? nevertheless, i went down to supoort my fellow classmates, teammates,.. whatever. Mr.LionelTeo wasnt the best actor, but he tried (haha!!). there was a part where two male lecturers was holding hands!! fucking GAY!! i was sitting next to James so we were both looking at girls asses rather than clapping our hands when they were giving out the awards. yes, bisexual indeed. *smirks*
and so we concluded that chinese girls have no asses, except for Huai Xin (im so dead!). Denise, Raymond and Amali was outstandingly looking good just now which calls for picture taking. and that turned out to be SW photoshoot in the middle of the reception. awesome people. looooovveeeee them. *roll eyes*
and people can never stop criticising about my boots.
"going fishing?"
"work at construction site?"
"snowing ahh?"
"wear pyjamas to school for whatt??"
yadayadayada.... even Mr.JamesWong joined in the 'fun'..
*insert i-dont-care face*

i went home having to miss my stop and 'telanjak-ing' till Marsiling (thank god!). i was certain i slept with my mouth wide open but i couldnt remember. lucky no pervert (haha!). it started to pour and i was loving it. it was cool, cold and inspiring. although it was dark and wet, i love the rain. i hope to meet the girls on Saturday since im out in the morning for project. hopefully.

needless to say, my days are duller by the dozen. i want to get all my projects done and over with so i could enjoy my days with my boyfriend and friends. whats worse is that i couldnt see as well as i can before. i need to get my eyes fixed. mum offers to pay a sum but straight up its not even half of it. but im glad she made the initiative. its been a long time she did that.

to whom it may concern,
i respect you and what you do. but i dont want you to get hurt. a simple sms, it can break you. do you know that?? i think you do. i dont want you to get hurt. what you are now, it took a hell lot of time, tears, laughters, silence, trust. i will always be here. you know that. whatever you are doing now, its not wrong. its risky from my point of view. i know you know that he can dissapear again. i know you know. i know you have prepared youself for that. sigh. i dont know how to make you understand what im trying to say. i just dont want you hurt and dissapear again, you hear me? i dont know if im able to get you back. because seriously, right now, you are a changed, more beautiful, mature, clever individual. at times im glad you can do without me. because you couldnt last time. it make me smile everytime you are able to communicate and not be wary of what you say all the time. you getit? i dont want to lose what you are now. i dont want YOU to lose what you are now. because now, you are great. you always say you're better. no, you are great. dont get hurt okay? i love you babe.

my les partner