stagnant

its like standing on the streets of NewYorkCity..
all buzzing pass, but she's just standing there.
no emotions portray.
just there.
marching bands, chasing cars, models parade.
actors, singers, directors, producers.
all pass her by.
the best part was, no one noticed her.

emotionless.
stagnant.
this is scary.
hate this.

i cant wait for Friday, Saturday and Sunday.
because it means : babyboy, babyboy, babyboy!!
*grins*
upset i never blogs about you right?? NAHHH!! AMEK KAUU!

i havent been eating right. i sleep like a log. i couldnt hear/feel any vibration from my phone(mind you its an old phone.. the vibration's damn loud/strong can?!?) unless i've woken up a few hours ago from my 'beauty' sleep. really, it aint a beauty. i didnt hear anything from my girlfriends. my world now evolves around school, boyfriend and family. im always damn tired. i appear enthusiastic for anything and everything. i just backed out of a Wii session with James and Raymond, whatthehell is wrong with me??!!! they are the most funnest people and i bail out on them!?! stupid or what, azi?!?im such a spoilt sport. really. i better start training for my Napfa. like seriously. first i have to get through my exams and pass with flying colours. damn, that is so secondary school....

i hate my life. im so fucking useless. my boyfriend's working is ass off and im spending his money. he has problems of his own damnit. im so fucking useless. i hate my life.

take me away,
put me in a box;
seal it up and dont let any air in for me to breathe.
maybe it'll get better then.