OMG this is so long ago.

I'm here. I love you. I don't care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. If you need the medication again, go ahead and take it -- I will love you through that, as well. If you don't need the medication, I will love you, too.

There's nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver then Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.

Ahli Fikir
2x5

Kali Bagi Tolak Campur
Habislah geli kerana geletek
Hilanglah resah kerana biasa
Kerana telah terbiasa
Geli dan resah tidak lagi terasa

Semut di seberang lautan
Kau nampak
Bila gajah di depan mata
Kau buta

Lebih sudu dari lauk
Lebih tunjuk dari tengok
Lebih diri dari duduk
Lebih cawan dari mangkuk

Berkata-kata jangan lupa
Banyak yang bertukang di mata dan Mulut
Sedikit sahaja yang
Menukang di tangan
Bangkai gajah busuk di hutan
Hendak di tanam
Pekong di kaki sendiri dibiaskan
Busuk oh.. Kurap, kudis, nanah, kayap.. ii..

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh

Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

Duduk diam tunggu dulu
Kunci mulut nanti dulu
Sebelum kau berbicara
Sebelum kau nak berkata
Cermin dulu hujung rambut
Hingga ke hujung hujung kuku kakimu

Kurangkan lada kurang pedasnya
Kurangkan rempah kurang panasnya
Kurangkan lebah kurang sengatnya
Kurangkan cakap kurang silapnya

Dan membisu takut takut
Nana tahu silap hari
Silap bulan lambat laun
Silap tahun kau menjadi

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh

Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

Jangan cakap lepas
Biar pandai beralas
Ada ubi ada batas
Ada hari kami balas

Kiramu hanya bias
Cecamu cuma tempias
Hari ini kami berkias
Esok lusa kami mengganas

Jangan suka jaga tepi kain orang lain
Kain sendiri yang terlondeh
Kata dulang paku serpih
Kata orang dia yang lebih

Ada orang suka menerima
Tapi tidak suka menderma
Ada orang suka menderma
Tapi diharap dibalikkan semula

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh

Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh

Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

Colbie Caillat
I Never Told You

I miss those blue eyes
How you kissed me at night
I miss the way we see
Like there's no sunrise
The taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But i never told you
What i should have said
No i never told you
I just held it in
And now i miss everything
About you
I cant believe i still want you
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Every time i close mine
You make it hard to see
Where i belong to when im not
Around you
Its like im gone with me

But i never told you
What i should have said
No i never told you
I just held it in
And now i miss everything
About you
I cant believe i still want
You
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But i never told you
What i should have said
No i never told you
I just held it in
And now i miss everything
About you
(still you're gone)
Cant believe that i still want
You
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

hmm.. im trying my best not to stoop to your level of literacy which you successfully managed to show the cyber world that you are not what you are as a person.
congratulations on that.
but my dear bitch, feelings dont lie.
i want you to know that i know.
im sure you know what i mean.

well, with that aside.
my blog seemed dead, havent it?

well, tons have been going on and i just dont have the energy nor time to write it all down.
i have a monthly update schedule which by the way is due this friday, and i have yet to touch it.
not to mention with tons of pending jobs on my table.
im killing myself.

outside work context, it has been quite stagnant with few perks along the way.
cant complain.
life's a bitch.
im still young.

to you,
i am pissed. i will hunt you down if you ever hurt him again.

to you,
i will never see you again if you let her hurt you and you let her off so easily.
you didnt give me a chance.

to you,
i dont know you anymore. yet i still do.
i dont know.

to you,
i dont want to be the guy in the relationship.
start acting like one or i'll walk away.
which i starting to.

to you,
im trying to not like you so much.

to you,
stop talking about others and make it seem as if they are the one finding fault with you.
get a life bitch.

i need a weekend getaway.
adious bitches.

its amazing how rumours starts.
like a burning fire, it started from a spark.

some people should really get a life of their own,
and the people they are bitching/kepo-ing about... didnt even feel the burn.

come on, be an adult and man up for your doings..
for once be responsible and write your bloody name on the paper and not leave it as anonymous.
think what, you writing a survey is it?
worse still, you linked the coloumn which is suppose to be your name to another blog.
mintak kene tendang?
dont know how to read is it?
NAME! not INSERT-LINK-OF-OTHER-PEOPLE'S-TUMBLR.
whoever you are, i hope fate bites you in the back when you least expected it.

why are you so bothered about whats going on in other peopele's life?
dont you have a life of your own?
dont tell me its perfect, shit happens once in a while.
so clean up your own shit and leave other's shit as it is and not dump your shit with theirs!
thats just insanely childish of you.

man enough? i want to see your face.
come on. its a challenge.

im sure you're reading this since you got my tumblr.
seriously takde keje?
other people have a hard time finding my tumblr and you have it.
bravo to you.

show your damn face.
OKAY LAH.. give you chance.
just write your name.
NAME.
not difficult right?
since you are clever enough to link people's blog im sure you can type out your name.

shingz.

and by the way, its a song from The Script; Before The Worse.
go look up for the lyrics.

double shingz.

when good turns bad,
when right turns wrong,
when everything you believed in bites you from the back,
when the world starts to turn against you,
who do you stop to blame?
who is to blame?
the world?
or yourself?

when do you stop and accept the fact you are at fault, now?
when will you realize it if your head is up in cloud nine, thinking it will all stay for a while?
how would you know it will last for a while?
can you gurantee that?
will you put your life on the line?

put your ego aside and step into the light.
the life.
its bright, too bright to see through the naked.
we have to find shade to block the sun.
sometimes we find it, most times we dont.
and thats life.
you just got to swallow it.

do the crime, pay the time.

Don Mclean
Vincent

Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and gray
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills
In colors on the snowy linen land

Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

Starry, starry night
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds in violet haze
Reflecting Vincent's eyes of China blue
Colors changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hands

Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

For they could not love you
But still your love was true
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night
You took your life as lovers often do
But I could have told you Vincent
This world was never meant for one as
beautiful as you

Starry, starry night
Portraits hung in empty halls
Frameless heads on nameless walls
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget
Like the strangers that you've met
The ragged men in ragged clothes
A silver thorn on a bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow

Now I think I know
What you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they're not listening still
Perhaps they never will

the days at NYP football field.

its funny how people can say they dont,
but in fact they are actually doing so.

never change.

Im Yours
The Script

You touch these tired eyes of mine
And map my face out line by line
And somehow growing old feels fine
I listen close for I'm not smart
You wrap your thoughts in works of art
And they're hanging on the walls of my heart

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours

You healed these scars over time
Embraced my soul
You loved my mind
You're the only angel in my life
The day news came my best friend died
My knees went week and you saw me cry
Say I'm still the soldier in your eyes

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
I know I don't fit in that much
But I'm yours

pictures of you, pictures of me

Dear Baby,

Im sorry i couldnt make you stop crying.
Im sorry you're hurt.
Im sorry if you think he doesnt care.
Im sorry i cant do anything about it.

Im sorry i choose to not do anything about it.
Cause you and i both know its not worth it.
Its not worth fighting for.

Now come on, crawl over here.
Let me take your pain away.
Let me wipe your tears.
Let me bare your pain.

He aint worth it my love.

With love,
Mum

i sit here like a little child.
lost in a crowded room, crying for her mum.
no one seem to care or hear the cries.
mummy where'd you go?
i miss you so.
then i go and think about the things you put me through.
mummy how could you?
how could you do this to me?
i love you so.
i love you so.

Before The Worst
The Script

It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain
So explain to me, how it came to this
Take it back to the night we kissed
It was Dublin city on a Friday night
You were vodkas and coke, I was Guinness all night

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

There was a time, that we'd stay up all night
Best friends talking till the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to loose, but so much to gain
Are hearing me? Cause I don't wanna miss,
Set you a drift on memory bliss
It was Grafton Street on a rainy night
I was down on one knee and you where mine for life

We we're thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

If the clouds don't clear
Then well rise above it, well rise above it
Heavens gate is so near
Come walk with me through
Just like we use to, just like we use to

Lets take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

look up and you'll see, be grateful for what you have.
smile, just smile a little, capture foolish hearts.
you are missed babyboy.

this is a rare state.

im emotional yet im taking it easy.
let the wind pass me by.
"interior wise = decent

exterior wise = HAVOC!" he said.

i wonder near and far.

it amazes me how much ive been through and looking back,

i must say i only have one regret.

no matter where i am and what im doing, i will always remember it.

Tonight, i bow down to You.

Amazed by Your power and creations.

How things are and how they are suppose to be.

Its because of You.

Sometimes we question why, we know damn well not to.

Keredhaanmu aku mencari.

Ampunilah hambamu yang kerdil ini.

HEY!

sorry havent been updating..

busy with Twitter, Facebook and Tumblr.

you all should try them.

THEY ARE AWESOME!

especially Tumblr.

FOLLOW ME!

but

FIND ME FIRST!

HAHAHAAAH!!!

i want to sleep peacefully tonight, just you in my thoughts.
as i wished for you in my dreams, the colours of the rainbow engulf me.
now hold me close.

hibernation

i realized whenever i do update this pathetic this blog of mine, i would always start by apologizing for my hiatus.
well its true.
i do feel guilty for not updating to a handful that reads this dead blog of mine.
and yes, ive been busy yet again.

alright the September holidays is around the corner.
although i have to report to work still im glad i have my enrichment courses this September cause i get to meet my CCPE mates back at Tanjong Pagar again.
lets see who have change, not that its not obvious.

i must admit this year i havent been religious for the fasting month.
God, whats going on?
i cant find you in my heart.
i hope i'd find you soon before Ramadhan comes and goes like the lightning during a storm.

the sunshine in the rain.
the wind in the heat.
the flaps of the butterfly wings.
all so magical.
its simply awesome.

tonight i lay down and close my eyes.
a smile lurked across my face.
thinking about this day and night.
nothing beats this.
its free too *smiles

its amore babe.

melayu maju?

*cough cough
presenting the most minah-looking mum i have ever seen.
i will never forget that look on your scorny ass face.
i'll be the matured lady and take all your bullshits.
from A to Z and 1 to 3.
i will surely hear from you again and i would not hesitate to be 'nice' to you.
i dont give a damn if i got fired from my job.
seriously dude.
muka tu make-up banyak-banyak pun kalau dah hodoh, hodoh jugak!

seriously be a fucking parent.
if you care SO much about your child, call your child first and find out whatever you want to know.
be the fucking parent.

omg you make me curse you on the day before Ramadhan, the first terawih night.
tsk

ciao babe
gonna meet my dude

HELLO GOOD PEOPLE OF THE WORLD.
god, i miss CCPE training days.. hahaha

sorry for the disappearance.
ive been busy, literally.

i had quite a week after the long weekend.
started with 2days medical leave and my last night out for the year.
wtf?!
but it was worth it.
*smiles

whats there to say?
its an undescriptive feeling i am unable to put into words.
it made me feel in cloud nine all the time.
all the time.
he always say, "takecare of yourself, you know what i mean."
i do. i never forget. what about you, i ask.

woots, i cant wait to be in a jet plane.
*smiles
it'll be awesome.

my hands tremble.
my eyes blurred.
starting to see stars.
the midnight light burns.
here i am again.
this crossroad never-ending.
which side now, Zie?
just keep falling.
always in trouble.
i like the feeling.

we'll make the stops along the way.
just take it nice and easy, this road of romance.

Fake faces

MINDFREAK

Dear Dreamcatcher,

How are you doing my lady??
I have been doing a-okay i guess.
This new job has been a big toll out of me but im coping and sticking to it for at least a year. we'll see how it goes for throughout the year.

I took a medical leave despite the looong weekend.
Its starting to get to me again.
Like i said in the previous entry, i was strong.

But i have great friends around me, never fail to lend me a shoulder or a listening ear.
I am super grateful to a special someone who taught me the hard way of moving on.
Although i didnt see it coming but it helped me, and i thank you.
You know who you are.
*looks up in the sky*
Im better now =)

My National Day, you ask?
I was with family. Family has been great.
Absolutely G.R.E.A.T.
Fasting month is around the corner, next Saturday to be exact.
Lets see if i survive. hehe

Funny, i dont feel the hype this year's Hari Raya.
Maybe because im too caught up with stuff and new job.
But no, i never forget the meaning of Ramadhan.
Hopefully, i get to do Terawih everynight.
Iman Azi.

Oh, i cut my hair again.
I just wanted to trim it but the hairdresser was being 'nice', so she cut it even shorter.
I look like a boy!
And funny (again!) i dont feel like cursing her.
Ironic.
Must learn how to style this hair of mine.

I met a few new people this period.
Hopefully to meet more 'nicer' ones.
HAHHA

"sit back and watch the game.
No harm to it," she said

Sincerely,
Natalie

I am strong when you are not here.
I am defeated when you linger.
Crazy thoughts swarm my mind.
Neglecting how i really feel inside.
You know i love you with all my heart
Now its breaking me apart.
Ignore my wound.
Bury my soul.
For i dont want to feel this pain anymore.

PHrEnZ Carnival

HELLO GOOD PEOPLE OF THE WORLD!
Bishan Park Secondary School celebrates PHrEnZ Carnival.
Inconjunction of National Day, Sports Day and Racial Harmony day.
And i must say, what a success!

The morning started out with the Principal with the routine National Day Speech and we start kick the carnival with the school's Sports Day, under the influence of the upcoming Youth Olympic Games 2010.
Representatives from all classes came through the glass doors of the hall representing the countries of the world and reciting the Olympic Pledge with much "dignity and pride".
How colourful the entire hall was, im amazed by their sportsmanship!
Then the BMX boys from Loose Grooves came in with their rides and stunts.
Simply AWESOME!

After the showcase, the school broke out to visit various booths set up all over the school.
We had the Inline Skating, Rugby, BMX Bikes, Kangoo Jump, Indoor Rowing, Archery, Chanbara, Nintendo Wii, Crime Prevention, NE Quiz and Art Competition.
We also had the final inter-class games going on during the carnival.
It was MADNESS FUN!

Ending it off are the prize-giving for the winners of the inter-class games and, as always, singing the National Day songs.
The school was super "harmonious" and i could swear at one point the school was united.
Reminds me of my secondary school days! Those were the days!

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Personally i had fun trying out Arhery, Inline Skating and BMX.
Its a great learning experience for my first event at Bishan Park Secondary School. The students were a great help.
I love my lower secondary boys even though they are crude and rude.
Arent we all are? Haha

Im bloody good at Inline Skating that students came looking for me just to ask me to hold their hands, not that im complaining.
Im now known as the Vans sneakers teacher. LOL
Oh, and there was a student who came looking for me but i wasnt there.
"Excuse me, who is the pretty girl that work in the office?" - student
"Who? So many girls work at the office. Is it the one that wearing shorts today" - clerk
"Ah yaya!" - student
"Dont know, go find out yourself," - clerk
HAHAA! OH-OH!

I MUST MENTION THIS. HEHE
EVERBODY THOUGHT I WAS A STUDENT!!
i was wearing PE attire; NYP Adidas shirt and shorts.
Damn funny!

BMX Bikes are tedious! Whats the use of the seats if you cant sit on it!?! Haha
But but, very good experience.
The boys was friendly, and i always have to make sure they are not too friendly to the students.
Boys will always be boys. Tsk tsk

By the way, i only get to sing ONE of the National Day song which is HOME!
One of the PE teachers suddenly grabbed me and starting swaying and singing with his students.
No choice but to sing also. LOL

When the students were dimissed, my real work began.
Setting up and tearing down is hard work.
I must thank Djohan and his squad for helping me with the set up and the uncles and aunties for tearing down.
The Indoor Rowers and BMX Bikers were a help as well, thank you for placing the tables and chair back to their respective places.
I owe you guys!!

its not how it seemed to be.

quickie

a quick update before i knock off from work and meet my favourite person in the world =)

Nurul's first day flee market wasnt as exciting as last year's.
i dont know about the second day because i didnt go, which was suppose to be the plan, but i hope its the same cause i dont want people to get better deals than i do!!!
hahahah!
spent not over a 100 bucks. ahaha

i got a feeling my phone bill will be extra extra high next month =(

cant wait for picnic with CCPEs.
REUNION!!!
AND IM NOT BLONDE PEOPLE!!

let me rephrase what ive define so far.
i cant seem to get you out of my mind.
you linger aruond me.
like a buzzing bee.
making melodies in my head.
sting yet catchy.
i hate this part right here.
you are up there and im down here.

stop understanding and start accepting = fate?

=)

Straw Hat and Old Dirty Hank
Barenaked Ladies

I tend the wheat field that makes your bread
I bind the sweet veal, pluck the hens that make your bed
Mother nature and mother earth
Are two of three women who dictate what I'm worth

I'm the farmer
I work in the fields all day
Don't mean to alarm her
But I know it was meant to be this way

You cried a tear, I wiped it dry
I put you up upon a pedestal so high
If you should waver, if you should sway
I'd catch you, spread my tiny wings and fly away

You signed your picture with and O and X
I bet you don't write "love" each time you sign your cheques

I'm the farmer
I work in the fields all day
Don't mean to alarm her
But I know we were meant to be this way

All of this corn I grow I grow it all for you
I took a hatchet to the radio I did it all for you
Well you could have written back
And you could have said "thank you"
But I guess you've got better things,
But I guess you've got better things,
I guess you've got better things,
Better things to do
Better things to do yeah
Better things to do

You say you love me, is that the truth?
Although they've heard the songs, my friends need living proof
I know your address, I ring the bell
I bring you flowers and a twenty-two with shells

I'm the farmer
I work in the fields all day
Never wanted to harm her
But I know it was meant to be this way
I know it was meant to be this way
I know it was meant to be this way

I JUST DONT HAVE THE FREAKING TIME

even im using a computer everyday at work, i still dont manage to update my blog.
i just dont have the freaking time!
to those who texted me during my working hours, im sorry i did not reply!
i just dont have the freaking time!

i think i sniff in too much substance that my head is spinning and im talking nonsense!!
HAHA
i dont even walk straight now. tsk
bad bad.

a drive was all i need.
to gaze at the stars.
an indication to still hope.
to believe and have faith.
no matter the disappointment that encountered.
the stars twinkled brighter and always.
and the song crept in my head.
singing the tunes of yesterday.
no i did not forget.
no i will never forget.
oh sweet one.
where'd you go?
outfated and has been.
i wish you the best, i guess.

among the stars

outfated

before i forget,
HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY AZLAN.
blogger was a bitch..
i couldnt update.

a little relief i must say,
this job is taking up my time.
i am glad.
i am glad-er.
*smiles*

for whats its worth,
the song was exactly how it was written.
exactly how it happened.

the words from your mouth are disappointing.
you should have picked up the phone and call me.
but you went ahead and be 'smart'.
that if she loves you, she would fight for you.

nevertheless i accept gracefully.
you were a disappointment.
if you've cared, none of this should have happen.
but it did, and look who was blamed.

such pity.
if it was meant to be, you'd be flying to see me.

blogger's a bitch.
moving.

Already Gone
Kelly Clarkson

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even without fists held high, yeah
Never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now
I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And i want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But i want you to move on
So i'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But i know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that i love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And i want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But i want you to move on
So i'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So i'm already gone

Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, oooo, oh
Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And i want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But i want you to move on
So i'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So i'm already gone...

Broery Marantika
Pamit

ijinkan aku pergi
(give me permission to leave)
apa lagi yang engkau tangisi
(there's no point in crying)
semogalah penggantiku
(hope my replacement)
dapat lebih mengerti hatimu
(would better understand you)
memang berat kurasa
(yes, its hard for me)
meninggalkan kasih yang kucinta
(to the leave the one i love)
namun bagaimana lagi
(but there's no way)
semuanya harus kujalani
(i could ever continue)

selamat tinggal kudoakan kau selalu bahagia
(goodbye, i hope you'll be filled with happiness)
hanya pesanku
(please remember)
jangan lupa kirimkan kabarmu
(dont forget about me)
bila suatu hari dia membuat kecewa di hati
(and if one day, she make you suffer)
batin ini takkan rela
(i cannot bear)
mendengarmu hidup menderita
(to hear you live in misery)

sayang, walau kebersamaan kita hanya sesaat
(my love, even though we were together for a while)
namun kau tetap bagian dari jiwaku
(you are still a part of me)
kuiringi kepergianmu dengan ikhlas hati
(i accept this fateful separation)
semoga kelak kita dapat bersatu lagi
(in hoping we'd be together again one day)

selamat tinggal kudoakan kau selalu bahagia
(goodbye, i hope you'll be filled with happiness)
hanya pesanku
(please remember)
jangan lupa kirimkan kabarmu
(dont forget about me)
bila suatu hari dia membuat kecewa di hati
(and if one day, she make you suffer)
batin ini takkan rela
(i cannot bear)
mendengarmu hidup menderita
(to hear you live in misery)

El Cantante

my cantante sing me something new.
something fresh, maybe real.
sway my body with your rythmn and music.
let my feet move to the sound of your beats.

my cantante drown me in your ocean of tears.
i can feel the pain from those words.
let my soul play with your melody.
caress the tunes of a simple symphony.

el cantante so versatile.
he never lies.
el cantante so divine.
you'll be smitten with his charm.

my cantante dont stop singing.
my heart beats your melody.

is this THE sign?

Dear Dreamcatcher,

tonight, i took out the ring representing and put it away in its original box.
tonight, i finally broke down which i've been trying to do it for quite sometime but i failed because of my pride.
tonight, it all ends.

when it was all i needed, it came slapping in my face.
still, i was too naive to accept it.
still, i deny it.
is this THE sign?

my hopes and dreams.
crashed by the waves again.
i tried so hard to prevent them from coming ashore.
they came from ashore.
i tried.

like a knife piercing through the heart.
slowly but surely.
the blood came later after the process.
the pain unbearable, sharp and poise.

i stood there in the rain.
letting the blood flow free.
this is how i feel.
this is what i see.
nothing's good ever coming this way.

so im running and screaming.

so Dreamcatcher tell me, am i ever going to find my prince again?

Wounded,
Natalie

Im Permanent
David Cook

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry
And everything it will surely change
Even if I tell you I won't go away today

Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
And all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary rest your head
I'm permanent

I know he's living in hell every single day
And so I ask oh god is there some way for me to take his place
And when they say it's all touch and go
I wish I could make it go away
But still you say

Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary rest your head
I'm permanent
I'm permanent

Is the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my promise that you'll never see me cry

Take It All On

The day is endless like the azure sky.
An occasional bird drifts slowly by.
This is the day for summer hearts,
and chasing sunsets till it gets dark.

Everything falls silent as the end of the day arrives.
The pier glows softly in the twilight.
Follow the tide out into open water,
to where the sun melts into the sea.

The land that lies ahead is unmapped and untrodden.
The path is not yet known.
There are valleys to cross,
and peaks to scale.
The call of the wild is hard to resist,
its rush is electric.
Where next?

It's time to escape, break away.
Take the next plane out.
Take a different route.
Take the clothes on your back,
your wits and heart for adventure.
Take the first step.

when will you get it?

when it all falls

gosh, my blog's been dead for quite a bit.
i reckon it'll stay like this for a while...
hey, when has my blog ever been a hot spot??
oh wait, yeah there was a time. hmm...

tick tock, tick tock..
fasting month coming up in like a month's time.
D, dont get worked up because its your birthday okay.. haha
July already? its been 4 months since i graduated.
look where i am now. hah

can the hype about MJ be over? its starting to get annoying.
like only now people start to listen to his music, looking up on the net to see his latest news or videos..
why bother now?

another round of movie marathon?
this time nobody leaves for date or food please!

you're gonna be okay

my Sunday was well spent, i must say.
had picnic at the shores of Sentosa beach, even though there were slot of people being the last day of the school holidays and everything.. i had fun.
had pasta, sandwiches and cheesy hotdogs for the picnic.
the weather was on my side despite the drizzle earlier.
fell asleep while listening to the tunes from the radio..
im such a lazy bum. haha!

tomorrow is a new day.
the sun will shine over your head.
and the wind shall brush against your face.
leaving you with a great feeling in your gut.
that everything will go your way today.
so put on a smile girl, nothings gonna ruin this day.

SEGA Game moods

Man In The Mirror
Michael Jackson

I'm Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It's Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .

As I, Turn Up The Collar On My
Favourite Winter Coat
This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street,
With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind?
Pretending Not To See
Their Needs
A Summer's Disregard,
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man's Soul
They Follow Each Other On
The Wind Ya' Know
'Cause They Got Nowhere
To Go
That's Why I Want You To
Know

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change)
(Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah)

I've Been A Victim Of A Selfish
Kind Of Love
It's Time That I Realize
That There Are Some With No
Home, Not A Nickel To Loan
Could It Be Really Me,
Pretending That They're Not
Alone?

A Willow Deeply Scarred,
Somebody's Broken Heart
And A Washed-Out Dream
(Washed-Out Dream)
They Follow The Pattern Of
The Wind, Ya' See
Cause They Got No Place
To Be
That's Why I'm Starting With
Me
(Starting With Me!)

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Ooh!)
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change His
Ways
(Change His Ways-Ooh!)
And No Message Could've
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .)
Change!

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror,
(Man In The Mirror-Oh
Yeah!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make The Change)
(You Gotta Get It Right, While
You Got The Time)
('Cause When You Close Your
Heart)
You Can't Close Your . . .Your
Mind!
(Then You Close Your . . .
Mind!)
That Man, That Man, That
Man, That Man
With That Man In The Mirror
(Man In The Mirror, Oh Yeah!)
That Man, That Man, That Man
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
You Know . . .That Man
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Oh Yeah!)
Gonna Feel Real Good Now!
Yeah Yeah! Yeah Yeah!
Yeah Yeah!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Ooooh . . .)
Oh No, No No . . .
I'm Gonna Make A Change
It's Gonna Feel Real Good!
Come On!
(Change . . .)
Just Lift Yourself
You Know
You've Got To Stop It.
Yourself!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
I've Got To Make That Change,
Today!
Hoo!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Got To
You Got To Not Let Yourself . . .
Brother . . .
Hoo!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
You Know-I've Got To Get
That Man, That Man . . .
(Man In The Mirror)
You've Got To
You've Got To Move! Come
On! Come On!
You Got To . . .
Stand Up! Stand Up!
Stand Up!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Stand Up And Lift
Yourself, Now!
(Man In The Mirror)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Aaow!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Gonna Make That Change . . .
Come On!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know . . .
(Change . . .)
Make That Change.

ready set

my long awaited letter didnt poof! itself in the mailbox this morning.
and im extremely disappointed with myself.
i guess im not cut out for it afterall.
time to pack up and leave, this town dont need me.

worse nightmare come true? hell yeah.
couldnt leave me alone, can you?
we'll just let things flow, see if im right yo.

the hype about the disease is so distant to me.
maybe because im always in at home.
lucky me.

it'll be great if i get responses as fast as possible.
so i dont have sit and watch another episode of soup opera,
complaining about how stressful their life is or another teenage pregnancy.

see how life works,
down down up down.
it takes so much to get up after a fall.
no wonder people plunge into concrete cement and break their bones.

Butterfly Fly Away
Miley Cyrus

You tucked me in, turned out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be

And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
Flap your wings now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
We've been waiting for this day
All along and knowing just what to do
Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly, butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away

kodak moments

at times... we are often tested in many ways...
ways that we were certain that we will never make it and that its impossible to get through this one..
but hey, we always manage to.
always.
did.
managed.
its only a matter of time.
"it'll get better in time," like she said with much anguish.
now is the time where i want to get a piece of rope and tie it around my neck.

its the wait thats torturing.
the wait that keep our minds run wild and free and our actions, well.. unplanned.
can i die now like seriously?
i was kinda looking forward for the runway course, feeling glamorish is good for the soul.. haha
okayy.. side tracked.
and i forgot what i was talking about. awesome.

Maldives is like seriously damn nice lahh!!!
im so freaking jealous!
im so going next year... yeah right.
hahahaa
i hope.
lets pray together shall we?
that some nice being would accidentally transfer 1k into my account and totally halal-ed it.
again.

hehe!

so darling tell me,
are the waves going to crash our sandcastle away again?
am i going to wake up to your face in the morning again?

HoeDown Throwdown
Miley Cyrus

Boom Boom Clap Boom De Clap De Clap
Boom Boom Clap Boom De Clap De Clap
Boom Boom Clap Boom De Clap De Clap
Boom Boom Clap Boom De Clap De Clap

Try It With Me Here We Go,
Boom Boom Clap Boom De Clap De Clap (Woah, Woah)
That's Right, Boom De Clap De Clap
Boom Boom Clap Boom De Clap De Clap (Woah, Woah)

1,2,3
Everybody Come On Off Your Seats,
I'm Gonna Tell You About A Beat,
That's Gonna Make You Move Your Feet

Ill Give The Bar-B-Q,
Show and Tell You How To Move
If your 5 Or 82
This Is Something You Can Do (Woah, Woah)

Pop It, Lock It,
Polka-Dot-It, Country-fy, Hip-Hop Fit,
Put Your Hawk In The Sky, Move Side To Side,
Jump To The Left, Stick It, Glide

Zig-Zag 'Cross The Floor,
Shuffle in Diagonal
When The Drum Hits, Hands On Your Hips
One-footed 1-80 Twist

And Then A
Zig-Zag, Step, Slide,
Lean In Left, And Clap 3 Times,
Shake It Out, Head To Toe
Throw It All Together, Thats How We Roll

Do The Hoedown (Throwdown)
Do The Hoedown (Throwdown)
Do The Hoedown (Throwdown)
Throw It All Together,
Thats How We Roll

We Get To 4, 5, 6
And Your Feeling Busted
But It's Not Time To Quit,
Practice Makes You Perfect (Woah, Woah)

Pop It, Lock It, Polka-Dot-It (Woah, Woah)
Country-fy, Then Hip-Hop Fit (Yeah, Yeah)
Put Your Hawk in the sky, Move Side To Side (Hey, Hey)
Jump To The Left, Stick It, Glide

Zig-Zag 'Cross The Floor,
Shuffle in Diagonal
When The Drum Hits, Hands On Your Hips
One-Footed, 1-80 Twist

And Then A
Zig-Zag, Step, Slide,
Lean In Left, And Clap 3 Times
Shake It Out, Head To Toe Throw It All Together,
Thats How We Roll

Do The Hoedown (Throwdown)
Do The Hoedown (Throwdown)
Do The Hoedown (Throwdown)
Throw it all together that's haw we roll.

Boom Boom Clap, Come On Here We Go
Boom Boom Clap, Boom De Clap De Clap
Boom Boom Clap, Boom De Clap De

Pop It, Lock It, Poka-Dot-It (Woah, Woah)
Country-fy, Then Hip-Hop It (Yeah, Yeah)
Put Your Hawk In The Sky, Move Side To Side (Hey, Hey)
Jump To The Left, Stick It, Glide

Zig-Zag 'Cross The Floor,
Shuffle in Diagonal
When The Drum Hits, Hands On Your Hips
One-Footed 1-80 Twist

And Then a Zig-Zag, Step, Slide,
Lean In Left, And Clap 3 Times
Shake It Out,Head To Toe
Throw It All Together Thats How We Roll

Do The Hoedown (Throwdown)
Do The Hoedown (Throwdown)
Do The Hoedown (Throwdown)
Throw It All Together, Thats How We Role

Do The Hoedown (Throwdown)
Do The Hoedown (Throwdown)
Do The Hoedown (Throwdown)
Throw It All Together,Thats How We Roll

Boom De Clap, Boom Boom De Clap Clap Clap,
Boom De Clap, Boom Boom De Clap Clap Clap
Boom De Clap, Boom De Clap De Clap
Throw It All Together Thats how we Roll

this is personal

malam diterangi bulan serta bintang berkelipan.
cahaya sinar mekar menusuk kalbu.
di situ, dia berdiri kaku.
hanya bertemankan bulan, setia menunggu.

segalanya telah diberi.
segalanya telah dijawapi.
segalanya telah diuji.
apa lagi ya Illahi?

bercerminkan air seluas angkasa.
ditemani bulan, tangisan dan kecewa.
ingatannya kabur, tidak ingin berbicara.
harapan ia berlalu, tidak dikenang jua.

"oh cinta, datanglah lagi.
aku ingin merasa sekali lagi.
oh cinta, jangan kau pergi.
aku janji ini terakhir kali."

"teman, jangan kau lari.
aku tidak ingin kehilangan lagi.
teman, dengar apa yang diungkapi.
kebenaran telah diketahui."

dia melangkah pergi.
akan kembali lagi.

For Once In My Life
Stevie Wonder

For once in my life I have someone who needs me
Someone I've needed so long
For once, unafraid, I can go where life leads me
Somehow I know I'll be strong

For once I can touch what my heart used to dream of
Long before I knew
Oooh Someone warm like you
Would make my dream come true

Yeah yeah yeah

For once in my life I won't let sorrow hurt me
Not like it hurt me before
For once, I have something I know won't desert me
I'm not alone anymore

For once, I can say, this is mine, you can't take it
As long as I know I have love, I can make it
For once in my life, I have someone who needs me

HE He He Hey yeah
ooh baby ooh baby

For once in my life I won't let sorrow hurt me
Not like it hurt me before
For once, I have something I know won't desert me
I'm not alone anymore

For once, I can say, this is mine, you can't take it
Long as I know I have love, I can make it
For once in my life, I have someone who needs me

For once in my life
Yeah Somebody like my
Ooh baby

in moderation

im praying this will work out.
i praying it was good enough.
im praying tomorrow the sun will shine.
with very strong wind to cool it off.

So...
If it's special
Then with it why aren't we as careful
As making sure we dress in style
Posing pictures with a smile
Keeping danger from a child

Lately I've been staring in the mirror
Very slowly picking me apart
Saying I'm trying to tell myself I have a reason
With your heart

Anything, i would do
And that really is my point of view
If ever, my darling in my life
I ever had a chance to love you

Knock and the door shall be opened
Seek and you will find
Ask and you'll be given
The key to this world of mine

"change the way you look at things, and the things you look at change..."

MIC

he's super great, super tender, super loving.
he's super annoying, super nerve-wrecking, super frustrating.
he's a lover and a best friend.
all wrapped up in a ribbon.

"you beautiful," she said in MIC accent.

i want my cuties

20 questions

the last straw is swaying.
im losing control.

is this it?
not meant to be?

i have more fun than this.
do i need it?

Tercipta Untukku
Ungu feat Rossa

menatap indahnya senyuman di wajahmu
membuatku terdiam dan terpaku
mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku, oohh
banyak kata yang tak mampu ku ungkapkan
kepada dirimu

aku ingin engkau selalu
hadir dan temani aku
di setiap langkah yang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku

meski waktu akan mampu
memanggil seluruh ragaku
ku ingin kau tahu
ku selalu milikmu
yang mencintaimu
sepanjang hidupku

sungguh hanya lah dirimu
yang aku cintai
dan sungguh ku kan di sisimu
hingga ku mati

aku ingin engkau selalu
hadir dan temani aku
di setiap langkah yang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku

meski waktu akan mampu
memanggil seluruh ragaku
ku ingin kau tahu
ku selalu milikmu
yang mencintaimu
sepanjang hidupku

The Climb
Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah)

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh

flowers as reminders

WASSUP PEOPLE!!
my jam packed weekend is finally over..
i had lots of laughter with my families.. especially with our tradition trademark and the new trademark we found out.. hahah

Saturday
travelled to Toh Guan to witness the wedding ceremony. Kak Aliss was gorgeous.

the newly weds

the surprise gift
the symbol of freedom
pretty in tudung aint she? =)
flower girl

Sunday
Remaja Salihin (i think its spelled like that.. LOL) aka the kompang/nasyid boys was crude and irritating on the way in the bus to get the bride to Yishun. once again, Kak Aliss was gorgeous =)

the melawazz aka minah tudung

the makciks aka Datin Diaries
the pakciks aka Datok K nye sedare
the asal boleh enter frame aka menyiboks
the keciks aka cuties

Monday
Graduation Day! i was sweating my pants off! im glad my parents at least got the heart to come down without complaining how boring it was for them. and thank YOU! i love everything. i do =D

=D
she's my cousin
excited
the pendeks. HAHAH

for more pictures on Graduation Day please log in to Facebook.com, thank you =)

favourite thing of the day =D

me and the boys

so Kriz won. BOO!
Adam just rock my socks..
its the voice people, not the face.
shame you Americans. tsk
reminds me of Anugerah 2008, when Aliff Aziz won.
*stunned face*
like WTH?
shame you Singaporeans. tsk

so my uncle had a bike accident few days back.
there goes my chance of taking a bike license, damn.
oh heck, im using my own money.
fuck off.

i never thought it would be so hard to write up 50 words to convince someone that you can do something. its CRAZY! im cracking my brains. all i can come up with...
"i believe i can do it."
how convincing is that?? NOT!
UGH.
can i like die now like seriously.

i realise i like musicians.
Facebook quiz was RIGHT! HAHA!
especially those that can play the guitar or piano.
not the matrep or punk rock kind.
the one like Justin Timberlake and Carlos Santana kind. HAHA
so random.

play me a tune.

the clock ticking

bonne nuit

Sweet Wings of Love
Disney - Three Musketeers

Afloat on the breeze on wings of love
Like birds and like bees sweet wings of love
The first day we met on wings of love
We watch the sunset sweet wings of love
And if by some chance some twist of fate
We're chasing romance its not too late
Its Heaven design
You'll be mine
Hands entwined on wings of love

Our real-life fairytale
fairytale
Down the streams of life we sail
life we sail
And our world in twilight gleams
twilight gleams
Like the light in your eyes inside my dreams

Your whisper lightly tickling my ear.
Its Paris--Ah!--in the spring
spring,spring,spring
I feel so giddy.
One thing is clear
You stir my heart to sing

Dont take your hand from mine,
hand from mine
Just hold tight until you find,
hold on tight
You're the light im dreaming of,
dreaming of
And im waiting for you on wings of love

Waiting for you
On wings of love
On wings of love

lay it out

i am jammed pack this week..
lets see...
tomorrow interview at Toa Payoh SAFRA and badminton session with Shafira after that.
so far im free mid-week..
Thursday i got training session at Expo, which i have no idea how to get there..
Friday i have my long awaited PPT test at NTU and class gathering which was postponed.
the weekend is fully booked due to my cousin's wedding, like OMG *bimbo voice*
and the following day will be my *drum roll please* GRADUATION DAY!!! like finally.
so thats me this week.
GOINGGGGGG MAAAAAAAAADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!

JOB JOB! WHERE ARE YOU JOB!!??!!!

fly away license, not going to be in my wallet this year.. boohoo.

Sailorman, please stay.

whats in it

doesnt it amaze you that when your mind suddenly thinks of someone and a few minutes or hours later he/she calls you? hell yeah.

MARK! WHERE YOU AT??! I MISS YOU!

a desire

BOO!
Angels&Demons wasnt as great as i thought it would be. but i was excited to be able to catch it on the day of its release in Singapore. how awesome is that!! *grins

i want to feel the sand on my feet and when i throw my head back, i want to see bright blue sky with dozens of cloud nine. i want to feel the wind brushed against my face, brings a smile on my face once more. with groups of good friends around, laughter and happiness... forgetting the painful world we live in for a while and enjoy each others' company.

a pain that consumes all thoughts.
with pleasure sets like a baby in its mother's arms.
thoughts spreads their wings and lift off.
leaving the dust in your eyes.
you choked, coughed... eyes never left sight of 'em thoughts.
and you hope they would leave forever.
ending the pain it caused.
now for the pleasure.
you want the pleasure.
we want the pleasure.

evening in a pigsty

you suck.
yes you.
dont look around, pretending you dont know who im talking to.
YOU dumbass.
living off your parents'.. 20 year old balls.
time to get yourself a house of your own.

NEL totally suck this evening. like totally.
"there are no train service from AngMoKio to Yishun.
you are advise to use other transport means..."
WHAT OTHER TRANSPORT MEANS BALLS?!!!
HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO GO HOME WHEN THERE IS A SICK QUEUE FOR BOTH BUS AND CABS.
oh, the best part..
"you can refund your *muffles* within 3days time,"
WHAT?!?!
IM SO SCREWING SMRT UP BIG TIME!
AND THE MAKCIKSSS AT THE CUSTOMER SERVICE BETTER NOT KEEP SWEARING IN MALAY!!
I'LL SCREW HER BACK, i promise.

E63. i dont see the speciality.
no idea why its a hot seller.
tell me about it okay Mark?

swallow a slice of your ego.
it may make you full, but it doesnt make you fat.

damn old photo.

sad sad situation

i started the day with Shafira's text, informing me that she was already on the way to school for breakfast at MacDonalds. she said i need not need to rush, so i close my eyes for a bit but i ended up waking up half an hour after she texted! hahaa!
rush rush.. (i bathed before i went out okay!) forgot some stuff, but nevermind.. took temperature at school, changed and BOOUUSSSSHHHH!! (sound effect damn bad siaa.. lol)
anyway, it means i went swimming in school aightss.. lol
drank alot of chlorine, choked alot of chlorine.. laughed when Shafira suddenly stop her froggy style because she choked on chlorine.. hahaha!
i so have alot to practise dude!!
Kim was such a doll.
i like her accent and i think she's hot. she got boobs dude!! LOL
had lunch at Gecko and off to NEL.

arrived home to find NTU application results opened.
UNSUCCESSFUL.
*sob sob*
damn sad.

can i die now? like really.
ARGH!

CHECK IT OUT YO!

Dear Baby,

i could still feel your small fingers running through mine. your skin, so soft i wish i had them. i could not forget the way you held my hands with your eyes closed shut. but i know you knew it was me. i could not stop smiling in glee. there you were, in my arms. a beautiful name with a beautiful face. i hope you grow up to be a nice lady, im sure you will with proper guidance. i will always love you.

Dear Baby,

i just want you empathy. thats it. i dont need you to be in the same shoes as i am because thats just not how it works. compromise. i dont know. my head's ringing alert sign all over because my heart's breaking. im starting to feel i cant do this because its too hurtful. i cant do this.

i can do this.

xoxo
Natalie

Hoobastank
If I Were You

You seem to find the dark when everything is bright
You look for all thats wrong instead of all thats right
Does it feel good to you to rain on my parade
You never say a word unless its to complain
Its driving me insane

If i were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing I'd do
Is thank the stars for all that i have
If i were you

Look what surrounds you now
More than you ever dreamed
Have you forgotten just how hard it used to be
So whats it going to take
For you to realize
It all could go away in one blink of an eye
It happens all the time

If i were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing I'd do
Is thank the stars above
Tell the ones I love that i do
If i were you

So whats it going to take
For you to realize
It all could go away in one blink of an eye
It happens all the time

If i were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing I'd do
Is thank the stars above
For the ones I love
Take a breath and enjoy the view
Live the life that I've wanted to
If i were you

it'l be a long, bumpy ride.

David Cook
Come Back To Me

you say you gotta go and find yourself
you say that you're becoming someone else
don't recognize the face in the mirror
looking back at you

you say you're leavin
as you look away
i know theres really nothin left to say
just know i'm here
whenever you need me
i'll wait for you

so i'll let you go
i'll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me

take your time i wont go anywhere
picture you with the wind in your hair
i'll keep your things right where you left them
i'll be here for you

oh and i'll let you go
i'll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me

and i hope you find everything that you need
i'll be right here waiting to see
you find you come back to me

i can't get close if your not there
i can't get inside if theres no soul to bear
i can't fix you i can't save you
its something you have to do

so i'll let you go
i'll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me
come back to me
so i'll let you go
i'll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me

and i hope you find everything that you need
i'll be right here waiting to see
you find you come back to me

when you find you come back to me
when you find you come back to me
when you find you come back to me

are you going away? cause i want you to stay.

lost without you, i'd give everything for you.

dont you walk away, cause im here to stay.

forever and ever babe, a promise i dare to say.

33 days, 792 hours, 447520 minutes and 2851200 seconds.

is all i got left.

are you going away? cause i want you to stay.

all to myself.

mine.

forever.

nothing to it

by the coast, separated from land and sea. blue sky drape above all, a scenic sight.

there is where we sat during the day, the night didnt stop us either.

the howling wind, the bright moonlight sky.

so beautiful.

you are so beautiful.