first da of school

first day of school!
first day of school!
*chants..

it went well i suppose.
i got a feeling im dreading to go for Monday lessons at 12pm because i'll be doing some practical activities..
i injured my hamstring because of yesterday's lesson..
urgghh..
cant walk properly mann..

on top of that i caught a fever yesterday..
turn in early yesterday so that im able to go to school today..
Alhamdulillah im fine now..
i swear i felt like dying..
and i got the urge to msg my Diana "if i dont see the sunrise tomorrow, i just want to say i love you"
hahaha..
so drama..
but yeahh..
i swear i felt like dying..
high fever and sore throat.
damn bad sore throat.

let me just get through this phase.
that i cannot escape.
i hope the ride ends soon.
because im tired of it.
not that im ready for the next ride.
but i have to face it somehow.
i'll be alright.
i'll be alright.
with you by my side.

look me in the eyes.
and tell me that you love me.

she's Nur Zainati bte Ahmad Zainuddin.

selamat bernikah!

congrats to my cousin for a well sort out planned wedding..
it was fun i guess..
i had lots of laughs and i shed a few tears when i saw the bride and groom getting blessings from their respective parents..

i cannot believe you had her to talk to me!
make her psyhco me so that i end this relationship??
wtf?
i cannot believe you!

i miss my babyboy.
i do.

heart scream out loud!

as you lay there sound asleep..
deep in your hopefully wonderful dream..
i kiss you on the lips lightly and walk away.
my fingers racing, typing this down..
the only way at that moment to vent my insides.
anger, frustration, hurt.
yet, you were oblivious.
and i dont blame you for it.
because i acted as if im okay.
sometimes i feel you could do a little bit more.
not that this is not enough.
im at lost.
now i dont even know whether im right.
shit im crying.
my hands starts to shake as i click the publish button.
afraid of your response and reaction.
i dont want a yacht or whatever.
i want to spend it with you.
to hell with the preparation.
i just want you.

will you stop it?!!

slow me down.
dont let me live a lie..
before my life flies me by.

i love you babe.

happy birthday mom

shoutout to my mom for turning a year older today..
".. counting up the years.."
lalala..
love OneRepublic.

been busssyyy..
work..
plus school is starting next Monday..
ironically i cant wait to start school and back to studying again.
its been a hell of a ride during TEP.
ughh.

counting down the days to my cousin's marriage this weekend.
now my uncles and aunties are having a meeting at my dining table..
and my cousin at the edge of his seat, figuring out which pelamin for the wedding..
haaaaaaaa..
all grown up..
and fat too.
hahahaha!!
Insyallah it'll turn out alrightt..

im waiting for my phone date at 1am later with babyboy..
haaa..
so weird.
yet so cute..
hahaha!
havent been talking lately.
miss you sayang.

i need a new phone damnit!

i so deserve the yacht!
urgh.
so bloody unfair!

gah!

shawty get loose.

knight in shining armour

my knight in shining armour.
my lady as stunning as ever.
i'll see you both tomorrow..
hopefully..
i love you.

just want to say,
i love you.

ddddd

we went shopping last Sunday.
watched StreetKings at 520pm.
it was surprisingly a great show.
haha..
he bought two tops and i bought a dress.
dinner was on me.
*grins.
I LOVE YOU TAU BACIN!!!

plans..
hah.
what plans..
waddahell are you talking about??
im 19years old goddamnit..
you forgot you have another daughter you give birth to earlier??
why not ask her??
just becasue i frequently meet people doesnt mean im getting married first..
like of cause i'll wait for kakak..
but i wont wait till im like what... 30? pegi mampos.
i have plans to mind you..
plannsss..
sheeessshhh..

Thio.
i just want you to know that im here..
not physically but mentally and emotionally..
you'll get through this you hear me..
like i said..
you know your limits..
teachers sucks. yes they do.
its for your best darla.
stay strong..
muahhss..

Lee.
now you know how i felt when they 'dont-know-how-to-use-their-handphone'..
they suck.
but we still love them..

you love my slippers!cant have them!
BLUEKS!

Paramore
That's What You Get

No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It's your turn, to take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt, so much?

I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why?All the possibilities...Well I was wrong

That's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa!
That's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa...
I drown out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa.

I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try... holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why? All the possibilities. I'm sure you've heard.

That's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa!
That's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa..
I drown out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa.

They, make your way to me. (to me)
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start... Start, hey!

Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to her so much?

That's what you get when you let your heart win!
Whoa.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Now I can't trust myself with anything but this,
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

lovely.

45minutes till i meet my baby boy..
and im still on the computer blogging..
heh..
you'll be late..
you're still in the shower..
hah.
*sticks out tongue..



yesterday was superb.
its was.



i was a happy child.
till 15minutes ago.
urgh.

credits to joe.

lesson learnt

i love talking to Raymond..
very good friend..
he always confide in me which is good..
hah..
prasan pulak..
but it makes me feel good..
i love to help my friends..
Raymond and i can talk about anything which is cool because not many guys confides in me..
and he's funny..
hahha

SAYANG!!
ITS NOTHING OKAYY..
IM WRITING THIS BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW TO START THE ENTRY..
OKAYY??
I LOVE YOU ONLY!!
*MUACKSMUACKS!!
hee..

smacked right in the middle of nowhere.
talents found was surprisingly awesome..
Baracudas Batucada was an awesome display..
Sirajibobo trying to rap along the way..
NRA was awesome with the capital 'A'..
i wish i could jump and fly like the girl in her pink tutu..
she was great..
so was Daphne Khoo..
MC with her long legs and eye catching shoes..
"im an indian.. i can dance.. i just need a tree," he says..
and there it was..
LETS PARTY!! ITS FRIDAY NIGHT BABEH!!

shopping spree

i used to think that 50dollars is alot of money..
at the age i am now at..
the increasing demand to constantly upgrade ourselves and the way we live..
money is not everything but its does make the world go roound..
no matter how i deny it..
it does.

its frustrating and tiring to please people..
here we are trying to make it work and you dont even give a damn..
dont even see what or why we do things..
use a little bit of your common sense and take a look at the world please...
i dont have to please you but because you matter to me..
thats why im still here.
if not..
pegi mampos..

work was okay..
not as tiring as yesterday..
but tomorrow i get to rest and watch Siraj's performance for like the first time..
i hope its good as he says it is..
hah..

im going to eat now..
lapar..
loveee

wedged killer

i swear i love ImranAjmain.
he's just THE best.
i dont have to elaborate anything else.
everyone knows he's THE best.
and i also love love love Didicazli.
he's so handsome..
haha
okay lah not really..
but he remind me of ImranAjmain.
he wrote Dambaan right??
Imran rocks at song writing..
i loveeee his songss..
the reasong im talking about him is because im reading his blog and he's so honest and how do i say this.. himself? getit?
like he supports local stuff..
to the extend to post an entry on the JanetJackson contest..
he rocks..
like seriously..
and the Manja magazine about an article that was dissing artist tempatan..
which is sooooo obvious they were talking about ImranAjmain is sooo unneccesary lahh..
so childish lah adults these days..
to post it locally is way beyond childish..
macam mane melayu nak maju kalau masyarakat sendiri tak sokong masyarakat sendiri??
and here they are talking about Racial Harmony..
hah.
to even compare about religion or as simple as skin color amongst your own community is so yesterday..
why does it have to be about how pretty you are or the way you dress to town??
i dont get it.
whatever lah actually..


work was fun actually..
with the new black shoes..
killer.
and teachers are such kiddiess..
and they say students are childish..
what rubbishhh.
the people are o k a y lahh..

i miss my babyboy..
didnt talk to him until i started blogging..
arghh!!
miss you bacin!!

time to shop!
whooo!
finally!

a trip to the botanic

friendster=hate

its cute how people try to be..
not to be a burden and think they will.
retards, hyprocrites, liars maybe.
the truth lies within, ponder if free.

his blood shot eyes and cigg in one hand.
talking, more like shouting to his family and friends.
brader mane brader??
puki mak aku jugak datang tengok..

shine him on God.
you're the only one that can.
dont misled him until.
he's lost and no turning back.
show him the light..
that You have been shining on.
show him You are the one..
the light he's been searching for..
Amin.

bitch

i saw chris brown on tv and i literally jumped from the sofa..
sorry baby..
HE'S HOTTT!!
and Jordin Spark touch his face!!
arghhhh!!
sungguh tak fair!!

i havent got much to say..
i miss my Diana..

the bitch up my throat again.

heyy
i just finished watching Pocong3..
its nottt scarrryyy..
*nervous laugh..
ahha..

my two devilish cousins came this morning..
had to take care of them while my mom bring my grandmother to redress her wound..
since ChineseNewYear sehh..
sighs..
okay so anyway..
its hard work taking care of two devilish cousins!!
arghh!!
both wants your attention at the same time..
i can do it but when one is having deficiency..
of cause your attention is more towards him..
sorry Nur darling..
you're cute and annoying at the same time..
grrrr...
*pinches cheeks..

Lee,
i cant make it Saturday outing..
im broke.
dead broke.
plus no allowance for the next two weeks cause im on holiday..
& i want that purple dress and get the shoes you feel in lup with first!!
wahhahaha!!
peace. hee.

papparazzi got us.

little things

the littlelest (?) things matter when it comes to nail painting..
the slightest detail is so obvious.
and it doesnt help when your left hand skill sucks.
hah.
my boyfriend can do better than me..
so maluu..

isnt it nice to have flowers and chocolates delivered to your doorsteps when you're sick??
and the person doesnt just leave the stuff on the floor okayy..
sucha coward.. haha
and its your own boyfriend..
*roll eyes.

i think i saw Andy last Sunday.

kay, random.

bored lahh at home..
im on leave these 3days..
no slot for work..
damn it.
i need a proper job.
gahh!

shall go and edit photos..
hee.
thats what i've been doing these past few days..
see ya!

no caption.

the aftermath

the pain on my finger is nothing compared to the never ending pain in my lower abdominals.
it doesnt help because i didnt eat my dinner (sorry baby!) because there's no one to guard the gym.
and here comes the headache.
spinning my head like the game SpinTheBottle.
standing next to the pole.
saying a little prayer.
to give me the strength to make it home.
the pain was unbearable.
i nearly dropped onto my knees.
the worse part was there wasnt any seats.
at least blood can flow through easier.
yes aku datang.
macam kau jugak makcik!

at last i got to see my babyboy for our lunch date.
but bacin was late so the time spent was short.
BACIN! YOU TAKMU LAMBAT LAGI LAHHH!! I MARAH NIEEE!!
grrr..
im always not taken seriously.
pfffftttt..

can i say i hate friendster?
its so bloody slow can?!
i know why some people delete theirs ;P

"you get super angry over small little things..
but when it comes to things you should get super angry about, you dont.
funny ah you."

eh? hah.
well, one logic i can explain to you is because i dont want people to take advantage of me.
so i dont let them get away with super small stuff so they dont mess with me when the big important stuff comes..
does that make sense mister? hmm?

i've been online these days.
not sure why.
and i've been clicking on people to talk to them more than i used to.
cool.
i miss chatting with my babyboy.
funny aint it sayang?? you feel the same way too.
cool.
to talk more crap on msn than on the phone.
i miss those days.
i miss you sayang.

as i turn to run away.
i could hear your footsteps coming my way.
"stop following me," i glared.
you never stop, continue with despair.
i stop and stare.
at the pretty doll in the window.
"baby, please dont walk away."
im right here. im right here.

becareful when you're dealing with dumb bells.

this is what you get.

yes i am

im in love once again.
you've made me sucha fool, boy.
go on and walk away.

walking along the streets, holding hands.
pretend like there's no tomorrow.
a smile swept across my face.
delighted.
"i've finally found the one for me."
a tiny voice squeaks.

he's not perfect.
nobody is.
he's not handsome.
but handsome enough for me.
(i dont like too handsome guys, no offense Juraimie)
he's smart.
in the ways i aint.
which is perfect.
because thats what im missing.

hand in hand.
we share things none should know.
and things everyone already has.
you have my back and i have yours.
through thick and thin.
in sickness and in health.
till death do us apart.
i promise to cherish you forever.
till the end of time.
(i dont make promises often)

im in love once again.
im sucha sucker when it comes to love.
because i'll love him till the end.
even if it takes me to heaven.

we're still so in love

tipsy

im getting tipsy.
with all the words im typing.
20more pages to go.
and im done and i can go.
down by the minute.
i've gotta get this down.
a click on the mouse.
and print print print!
let's go let's go!

my skin starts to itch.
i hate jurongeast seat.
i bet that bitch has the bloody disease.
and spread it all over the seat.
as the reddish disease swells.
i curse this deadly disease.
on my not-so-perfect skin.
my boyfriend's gonna kill me.

inhumanity at National Geographic.
Thais tearing a live cobra skin.
still struggling to break free.
from its deadly predator,human.
the more it fights, the nicer the meal will be.
sadistic.cruel.humans.

i miss my crazy girls.
i miss my beloved sisters.

pretty doll in the window

she's the most beautiful person i ever seen.
although i know they dont agree.
yet i still think she is.
with character and personality.
who can top that confidence?
i know i cant.
she's feminine and loud.
a friend you can rely on.
she damn right straight to your face.
and tells you, "you gained a little weight."
but i love her still.
Happy Birthday you little maggot.
may you be blessed in every way and any way.

a day in the daze

i spent 30minutes searching for something i shall not mention here..
and i still couldnt find it.
my eyes getting blurry now.
hah,..
all to find it.
i could just wait for it..
but nooooooooooooooooo!!
azi wants to find it.

why do i feel that there is something different about blogger??
or is it just my eyes now?
hmm..

i cant wait for TEP to end..
TWO BLOODY MORE DAYYSSSSS!!!
and im out..
which reminds me..
they havent send the ppt for the handover..
HMMM??!!!

one after another my computer give me problems..
gahhhh!!
so bloody irritating!!

bear with me while i figure it out.
gah!
ciaou babes.

yey!

yey!!
im online! im online!
*jumps around..
finally fixed it!!
i dont know what i did but boy am i proud of myself.
hehhe..
I FIXED A COMPUTER PROBLEMM!!
HELL YEAHH!!
BIG DEAL MAWNNN!!
WHOOOO!!
hhaah..
yes go on and laugh Lia..
i know you are..
*sticks out tongue.

so i took the final test for BodyWatch Gym..
like finally..
a load of burden off my shoulders..
now all i have to finish up is my reports which i should and WILL finish by tomorrow..
so that i dont have to think about it next week..
THE LAST WEEK OF SCHOOLLLL!!!
YEAYY!!

since i changed my url, i felt abit free to write down as honest as i can be.
without having that bitch breathing down my neck..
unless Diana change my link on her blog..
then i'll have to be 'insincere' in my writing..
you can change the link if you want darling..
i just...
i hate her lah..
sorry:)
and the smile is not trying to be sarcastic like she always does..
which i dont understand why..
*roll eyes..

anyway..
got to get back to my reports.
bye.
MISS YOU BACIN!

on the road to super stardom

friendster,msn

im so hating friendster and msn.
or is it just my computer??
whatever it is i cant be connected!!!
and im hating it!!
WEI TECK!! HELP ME!!!!

purified

im in the mood to blog..
about nothing and everything.
shall not reminisce on today because the day alraedy ended and even though i would like to turn back time, i possibly cant.
but everything that has happened made me the ME today.
and im glad.
could have been better but im glad.
syukur alhamdullilah.

yes im purified.
mentally and emotionally.
i hope it is stagnant as time goes on.
i have to be strong for my beloved ones especially my soldier boy whose going through a rough time.
it'll be better kay,love.
i promise.
*muacks.

TEP ending soon and i couldnt have been more than happier..
the Year One are lucky.
4 hours 30minutes only to be on gurad at the gym.
so bloody unfair.
i get 8hours now damnit.
but every good has its bad..
they dont get off and leave like i do now.
*dances around screaming "nyehnyehnyehnyeh!!"
haha..
so cant wait to be reunite with the whole class again..
alot of friendships and understanding grew at TEP.
although the TEP sucks but we learn..
pffftt..
thats all that its about..
"you learn something out of it, dont you??
and thats what you should achieve!"
yadaydayda..
*roll eyes..

tomorrow will be a better day, she said he said.
i really hope so.

and to that girl that smsed me about the adidas slippers ;)
my slippers are sample dear.
i bought it at the Adidas sample sale.
it was the only pair.
could have gotten you one too.
if i see it again i'll book it for you alright??
misses..

bow down to your queen. hee.

new skin!

yey!
finally i've got a new skin..
im so bored of the last one although i took the time and effort to do it..
im no genius in the html shit..
but people think i do..
hah.
if only they know..

shall not comment on today.

Happy 8th month baby..
i hope you like the advanced gift i gave you on Sunday..
its not hotpink but yeahh..
*grinss.
i dont want to say anything mushy and whatnot cause i dont have to express my love toward you in my blog..
hey, i get to meet you and everything..
so why would i want to do it in the blogg..
might as well i show it to you.
like people say..
"action speak louder than words.."
and act it i shall.
*smiless.
LOVE YOU!