beaten.

only God knows how i felt when i saw.
only God knows my feelings inside.
only God knows why i did the things i did.
only God knows how betrayed i feel inside.

i fear the lost and i can see it coming.

"what you feel only matters to you.
its what you do to the people you love."

i did my part. i havent seen yours. i looked up for you. i asked for you. i called you.
but you never did.
i cried so many nights. finding MY fault. finding the solution.
i am utterly disappointed by your actions.
never once you include me.
ya sure she smsed me, but YOU never did.
so what you going through a hard time.
so am i.
but as far as i remember, we never gave that as an excuse to not look each other up.
as far as i know YOU, we go all ways to get to each other.
2 months. blooody 2 months.
it wasnt a fight cause you never said anything?
i think thats the whole point.
remember when Ella came back last year and you were angry at me cause i didnt tell you or call you when i went to meet her about that incident with her brother?
yup thats it. the feeling of being left out.
and nobody's stepping forward to tell you the whole story.

if im being a drama mama, please tell me so.